deadbeat.sweetheart

2007-05-26T02:12:00.000+08:00

hello babies. (:

i'm really really sorry for the lack of updates. it seems that i'm getting pretty lazy these days. hah. pardon me though. life's okay for the past few days. my only happiness is my sunshine. even a simple good night message can make me feel like im on cloud nine. hehs.

so yeah, tuesday, i didn't go to school. one word; sleeepy. yeah. these few days, i've been getting real sleepy very easily. just like my bestie. but she's worst! LOLS. whenever i call her, it's either she's sleeping or she has just woken up from her beauty sleeep. haha. she's like really so free. ;p

back to updates. i went to school on wednesday. only god knows how boring it is. we only studied during maths lesson but everybody was really slacking. i think only half of the class came. the class was atrocious!

went back with andy&bestie. after school, went shopping with sunshine. i mean, i had to accompany him shopping. he bought for himself a pair of volcom pants, a pair of reef slippers, in white & a sony walkman mp3;

& i swear it's fucking cool i tell you. reasons are;
Specifications

3 Minute Quick Charge, 3 Hour Playback
18 Hour Long Play
FM Tuner
G-Sensor
Splash Proof, Water Resistant Body
1-Line Organic EL Display
Counter (Distance (km/mile), Step, and Calorie)
Sports Mode (Time/Distance/Calorie Target Setting, Music Pacer)
Stop-Watch
5-band Equalizer (Heavy / Pop / Jazz / Custom)

i find it just so cool. oh yea, on that day, i was pretty stupid. i don't know why. i was acting like i'm a real dumbass.
-__________________-"
we went to mc'donalds & ate our meals. before that, he bought me a vanilla frappe. he is so love! lols. oh yea, i did this after i ate;

after that, we went to taka garden to chill out for a while. & went to the toilet at taka & yeah, we went home. the best thing is, he even paid for my cab fare. hahaha. i'm not really a money-faced bitch but wells, it's just a once in a life time thing you know. ;p

thursday, i didn't attend school. like again. haaaah. so, mummy asked me to replace her at work, the whole day. sunshine accompanied me after he finished work. this time, i paid for his cab fare. ahaha. well, you know, since i was like freaking bored at work. oh, & i took some snaps as well but maybe i'll post it tmr or smth.

& today, i finally went to fitness first! lols. it's a super awesome gym i tell you. hehs. the facilities are like beyond words. i love it.

so yeah, basically that's what i did. hehs. pretty boring ain't it? oh wells, good night loves. have a good saturday, bunnies. (:

2007-05-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

UPDATES TMR OR LATER KAY SWEETHEARTS?
ilovekhairul. (:

2007-05-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

oh hello bloggers.

it's almost two & i can't sleep. i've been cleaning up the kitchen, living room & doing the laundry. i think i'm a compulsive cleaner. =x hahaa. anehoos, work was fine but i hate the fact that i have to go to the loo every one hour. it sucks big time. i don't know why though. was it because of my period?

oh yea, i took a cab to work since i was pretty late. it costed me around 21 bucks? oh & i wanted to puke inside the taxi the whole time. first, it was a bumpy ride. second, he drove slowly & kept talking. on the other hand, i didn't know what was wrong with me that i didn't tune in to my mp4.
-____________________-''

so.. today's like really dry. talking to sunshine was fun. he made me laugh a little since i was a bit bored there. he really know how to entertain me. hehs. sometimes, i feel like calling him my best friend. & sometimes, there are times where i regard him as just an ex-boyf. but there were a few times i felt like he was my own. my boyfriend. aaaahhhh. how i wish. lols. dream on fat ass! seems that his name appears on every post huh? free publicity? naahh-uhh. (:

a friend just broke up. again. & again, it's not his fault. the grrl asked for it. ohwell, i think, if these grrls don't appreciate love, they shouldn't fall in the first place. hahah. like as if falling in love can be avoided. okay so, sometimes, i really am irrational & stupid. lols.

so yeah, anyone wanna watch with me this friday? i'd prefer at lot 1 of course since there'll be not much people watching it. hehs. PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN - AT WORLD'S END.

keira knightley's hot! (:

i loved you then. & i still love you now.

2007-05-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

awww. i love my sunshine so much!

hell yeah i love him & i miss him. (: he's been busy & unwell for the past two days & i got to talk to him just now, like finally. he made me over the moon yaw. aww. hehs.

today was fine. has work as usual. big syster & her fiancee dropped by when it was closing time. chatted for a bit. they were going to watch a movie. heh. it's been a long time since i've seen her & she's cut her hair short. lols. her fiancee has definitely lost weight.

anyways, after work, mum, dad & i went to kampung chai chee restaurant to eat. after which, we went to their friend's shop. the italian fine dining restaurant. they sell the best fine italian food & dessert at a reasonable price. (:

so, yeah, & now, i'm at home. i wonder which team won for the match. was it chelsea or man. united cause when daddy watched it during the last ten minutes, chelsea scored a goal & made it 1-0. i really hope man. united wins. been a fan since i was 5 although i don't really watch soccer.

sorry for the lack of photos today. be uploading more in a few days.

oh baby, you don't know how much you mean to me.

2007-05-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

GOODNESS GRACIOUS, IT'S FINALLY SATURDAY!

lols. it's already close to three yet i can't sleep. the house keeps on getting messy & i need to tidy it up or else. dad promised me some buckeroos on a condition that his room gets tidied up.
-_________________-"

anyhoos, had a nice chat with nysa. she's now in rp. hell, she's just so lucky, unlike me whose still stuck with this sick secondary life. i wanna start anew. why is it that when i start to wake up, it's just too late? sometimes, this puzzles me. like a lot. ohwells. here's the snaps of my muffin. hehs.

plain with centre-filled peanut butter.

on thursday, i had to replace my mum at work for a few hours. & after which, i met up with sunshine. oh goodness, how i missed him. his new hair looks better on him. just like the old face. anyways, i accompanied him for window-shopping. that burton sweater which is big but actually looks cool & the volcom pants kinda attracted him. but hell, both of them burns a hole in the pocket! haaaah. just the two costs around 400 buckeroos? yeah. & as for me, i want that yellow reef bikini. it's hot. lols.

due to some stupid PMS problems that i had, i kinda lost control. it freaked me out & i broke down. ends up, i blabered nonsense & broke out into a tiff.
-_____________________-''
im sorry sweetheart.

now, he god damned sick & is asleep from 4 till now. i miss him a lot.

had quite a long talk with a friend just now. he'd just broke up with his girlfriend of several years. i pity him loads. hehs. but hey, look at the bright side of life. (:

tomorrow's the god damned fun fiesta. im not going i guess. i just don't wanna see mdm teo cause i know that it'll break out into another argument. i shall not interfere in any class events anymore & i guess i'll be minding my own business in the near future. oh yea, jonathan tried chatting with me just now but my mum just kinda interfered. & she's been getting on my nerves lately eventhough i do the right thing.

ohwells, good night people.

& oh, to widya, happy 17th birthday. (:

did your feelings changed in a snap?

2007-05-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO SWEETCAKES!
(:

i've just cleared up the kitchen after those muffin making.
its those type of chocolate centre-filled muffins.
hehs.
sister said it's nice except for the fact that it's dry.
well, im gonna improve on it.
& did i tell you that im planning to take on part time NITEC course in baking at BITC?
it's just part-time though since i'll be taking my O's next year.
& after i've completed the three modules, im gonna go for advanced NITEC & after which, diploma.
(:

oh yea, did i tell you guys what i did on mother's day for my mum?
here's a snap.

hehs.
all you need is some rose petals, your mummy's favourite puffs/cake, a card & some candles.
lols.
the reaction was funny.
my mother danced & sang happy mother's day in tune to happy birthday.
hahahahahha.
nuts i guess.

anyway, today is sucha sucky day for me.
my teacher's been stalking me for money.
& hell, i think i've decided that im not gonna attend the fun fiesta ass thingy.
ughh.
like just imagine somebody irritating you every now & then & embarassing you infront of the whole class.
knn.

ohwells, i think i wanna call my sunshine.
& after which, head to sleep.
(:

here's a reply to the overflowing tags!
kepp tagging tho.
haaaaaah.

popiah; no need to type your full name can? hahahaha. i will link you la.
eisha; haha. 's okay tho. hehs. (:
bobos; haha. ty for dropping by! (:
shalyn; awh. will do. (:
shuhada; relink done! (:
eyscha; ty for dropping by!
lily; nvm! it's okay. hehs. IMY too!
khai; that means, you don't pay attention to me. hahaha. ily.
sakinah; ty. you tc. (:
shacute; hahaha! hell yeah!
adah; thanks babe! (:
laa`laa; lols. you too tc hun.
bloghopper; thanks! lols. got it from a few sites. i forgot whr tho. haha.
idahchix; haha. better luck next time. (:
effah; hahah. i knw! not bad huh! (:
idahchix; patience - that's all it takes. be strong. *hugs
effah; you toos take care!

2007-05-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO SWEETCAKES.

today is like so mundane.

firstly, it's because it's a no-school-day.

all cause it's a marking day.

anyhoos, thought of asking khairul over but daddy didn't wanna work today.

& thought of going to mummy's workplace, but neehh, didn't have the mood.

especially after bathing.

i felt more like i wanted to sleep.

lols.

anyways, here's a test to all my friends.

Create your own Friend Test here

try it will you?

to aidie;

i dun knw whether i could trust you or not.

if you show me your friend's face, maybe i could believe you.

unless you're a friend of khai's, it maybe difficult.

i asked khai a gazillion times but the answer was the same.

he never ever lie to me.

we'v no strings attached.

so, if he was to lie, it's pointless dude.

anyways, if he had another girl in mind, he would have groomed so well that i would've melt.

all he does now is work & concentrate on gaming.

i know him so well dude.

even his family does.

haaaaaaaaaaah.

if the other girl called him, his mom would react differently if i called then.

haiyoh.

still, add me at msn.

i have to clear this doubt.

it's disturbing me.

okay, today's post is DRY.

i know.

i want saturday to come FAST!

im gonna go gyming.

& i wanna watch;

fantastic four- the rise of the silver surfer

pirates of the carribbean - at world's end.

woooo!

ohwells, tags to be replied tmr babes.

GOODNIGHT!

2007-05-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

monday blues?
naaahh-uhh for me.
lols.
it's a no-school-day for me today.
& i've been sitting at home the whole day wondering what to do.

i watched bleach episode 124 ytd.
it was totally awesome.
hahaa.
it's like the main character, kurosaki ichigo is now fighting against himself to
hide the hollow in him.
those who watched it will understand.
=x

anws, sunshine cut & rebonded his hair today.
he complained that it lookes funny & that he looked like a girl.
lols.
tried consoling him by telling him that it always happens during your first time.
haaaaaah.
i love him. (:

read seventeen already?
page 101-105.
im rated at the 'experience seeker'.
the pay's big man.
i mean, the pay for example of jobs for 'experience seeker'.
my ambition's to be a banker.
so yeah, just hope that i could be one & earn 5 digit salary.
haha. dream on huh.

ohwells, crap entry.
will be meeting sunshine tmr.
he's taking an off day just because of his hair.
hahahaha.

goodnight sweethearts!

eisha; hahaha. yeah! we'll go one day okay? (:
dd; aww. im fine babe. haaah. how's you then?
nani; hahahahah! okay pe babe. (:
bloghopper; like a boy - ciara. thanks for dropping by!
nani; haha. i can understand uh. gd luck for your O's uh babe!
LAA`LAA; aww. thanks babe! ILY too! (:
effah; lols. im not babe. haha. happy, happy days to you too! (:
faaaarr; lols! IMYT! (:

2007-05-05T12:40:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

it's a saturday yaaaw!

lols.

& a brand new day.

im definitely gonna have a hell of a long weekend.

oh, plus monday.

funny how i love to brag about it.

anyhoos, sunshine called me early in the morning to wake me up when work actually starts at four.

-__________________-"

but nevertheless, i appreciate it though.

i'm just wondering how the hell wake up so early when he knows that it's his off day today?

hmmmmm..

was browsing the net when i came across, "your love profile".

hell no, im not gonna copy the whole graphic thing.

it's hideous.

lols.

i just copied the words.

Your positive traits:
You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early onA total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knowsYou are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with
Your negative traits:
Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partnerYou tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficultIt's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.
Your ideal partner:
Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeplyDreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a familyLoves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!
Your dating style:
Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.
Your seduction style:
Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.
Tips for the future:
Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.
Best color to attract mate: Aqua
Best day for a date: Wednesday

almost everything is true.

i get hurt easily & is emotionally sensitive.

i take a long time to heal wounds of the heart,

making it impossible to open up to any other during the shortest possible time.

ahh.

cancerians.

what can you say?

lols.

ohwells, i'd get ready for work now.

else, i'll be late.

hehs.

have a goood saturday ya'll!

eishaa; why do you say so? & yeah, lets go gyming! [:
sai; eh nak letak gmbr kau buat per siak? lols. bday kau bole uh. ahaha. [:
lily; hahahaha. yea! & i hope you like it uh. if sai were to be such an asshole, just call him names will do. like sepet boy ke..
effah; no im not. =x

2007-05-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

no worries, there'll be no avatars today.

reason; im using the new pc my daddy just bought.

it's called pentium D.

idk just how many pcs does he need.

-__________-''

oh, i'm gonna but myself a laptop/a brand new computer by october.

haaaahs.

& of course, make him damn blardy jealous & im gonna secure it with unbreakable security codes.

haha.

im loving it.

hehs.

anws,

since tmr's like finally 5th of may...

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LY!

lols.

may your wishes com true & all the best in wtv you do!

& i just hope that, that kanasai won't be such an asshole on that big day of yours.

hahaha.

school's been sucky.

i've finally made a decision to just study after my june hols.

lols.

im damn lazy.

& it's no biggie.

people know it.

-_____________-''

so, mom & dad, expect good results for my prelims & N's.

& not for this freaking mid-year.

it sucks.

& yeah, im craving for that stupid double fillet-o-fish.

buy me anyone?

haha.

ahh yes, did i tell you that i watched this;?

SPIDER-MAN 3!

yeah.

watched it with khai.

the movie was awesome uh.

lols.

i rate it 4/5.

part of it was super damn funny.

haaaaaah.

go watch it babies.

you'll enjoy it.

as promised, more pictures of me;

yeah.

so, that's all.

more pics next time.

enjoy your weekends babies!

monday's a sch holiday for me.

lols.

take care!

eishaa; suntec. & it's not yt paying off. lols. it sucks siah.
atika; awwh. thanks for dropping by. [:
eff; it is babe. [:
adah; lols. im getting fatter i swear! not thinner. lols.
ninielalak; lols. alaa, ntg great siah.
nani; haaaah. hello nani! lols.
efaaah; thanks for dropping by! [:
faarr; im doing goood babe. how's you?
effah; haha. fitness first is okay uh. but i can't wait! lols.

2007-05-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

hello!
so yeah, notice that i love to put avatars now?
haaaah.
im like so in love with it.
call me typical.
whatever.
i think it's like my problem.
myob bitch.

oh oh, sorry for the lack of updates.
i'm gonna update like super long todaay, so, just be prepared.
& yeah, don't worry cause i have loads of pictures to post.
[:

saturday; 28th april?
worked my ass off.
nani & sani appeared out of nowhere when i was working.
so, chatted with them & had fun while waiting for my sunshine.
[;
nani was hyper.
lols.
she did things i never saw before.
hahaa.
oh yea, here's a snap.

hahaha.
she's holding some display thingy at my workplace.
anws, we met sunshine soon after.
he was rather sweet that day.
i managed to buy him the logitech psp casing he wanted.
felt bad that i couldn't get the blue one for him.
he loves blue.
bought him the white one instead.
nevertheless, he loved it so much.
& im happy.
lmao.

sunday; 29th april?
has to work again.
thought of meeting sunshine after work but instead, daddy fetched me.
he was together with mom & sister.
went to onan road first to get curry puffs for my aunty&grandma & for us.
after that, went to some crappy exhibition at expo that my sister suggested.
it was really crappy.
fucking crappy.
too many typical malays.
& they're selfish too.
taking up seats for their bloody bags.
your bag also tired ah? they got legs meh? until need to sit? knn.
my dad cursed & swore.
we put the blame on my sister.
ended up, we bought some food & went to east coast to eat.
[:
oh yea, did i tell you that the harvey norman exhibition was having some cheap bargains?
cameras for $100-$300?
& they're really good brands like cannon.
hehs.
same goes for television sets.
it was awesome i tell you.

ate at east coast soon after.
after which, headed to my aunty's house @ jurong.
our motive; visit my grandmomma who just returned from mecca.
she gave her children loads of goodies.
my sister got henna.
i wasn't interested in any of those.
=x
so, all i did was teach my cousin science.
it was primary school science.
can you believe that they were taught about the reproduction system of humans at a young ag of primary five?
omg.
i learnt it at secondary two.
lols.
oh yea, i love my lil' cousin sister's eyes & eyelashes.
here's a snap.
it's no clear though.
& plus, pics of me.
[:

i know my face is hideous.
=x

monday; 30th april
crap.
had exams & played cake mania since rea said she cancelled about the making cake for lily thingy.
lols.
ahh, & here's a snap of my cat.
NETT!

tuesday; 1st may.
labour day.
haha.
had to work.
met up with hanah & irfan after work to eat at gelare.
& met up with lily & the restat marina.
had fun.
& now im beat.
haha.
anws, today marks the 6th month i broke up wih khai.
&on the 23rd marks our 1yr6mth.
hais.
imy x-bf.
update more pics tmr & yea, will reply tag tmr too!

GOODNIGHTLOVES!

2007-04-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

hello sunshines!
awwwwh.
it's a brand new saturday already.
[:
i love saturdays.
im meeting khairul later.
& im buying him the logitech psp cover.
heeeeee.
just hope things will turn out well for me.
yesterday was sick.
mom & dad quarelled and like my dad really put me to blame, when i didn't do anything.
-______________________-''

oh anws, i can't wait for first May.
because, by then, im an official member of FITNESS FIRST!
yeah!
lols.

anyhoos, i'd better get going.
have loads to do!
[:

mizgreen; lols.you've been wanting it? haha. IMYT. [:
effah; IMYT! you too TC. [:
hanah; lols. like duhh. but it's true kn?
lily; haha. TY ly. IMYT la! like so long already siah we havent meet. ]=
raily; hahaha. TY babe! yea, VS rocks uh! lols

2007-04-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered what i'd do without you?
a whole year & six months.
i was with you that long though after the one year, we broke up.
please don't do it again.
im afraid of losing you.
ILY.

school was a-okay just now.
had my english mid-year examinations.
the first paper was okay.
just that i sucked at the article writing.
-______________-"
i got the format wrong & it sucks.
seriously.
section one, i wrote an argumentative essay.
i love argumentative essay.
i hope i'll pass though.
it's about singaporeans who are too pampered with modern-living & will not survive harships in the future.
it's definitely true though.
haaaaaah.

second paper was the usual comprehension passage.
& like for god's sake, this is my first time taking a normal academic paper.
so, i wasn't so used to the close passage.
it was kinda lame though.
was about the seven ravens.
must be one of the aesop fables.
=x
like omfg, we're secondary 4 students for god's sake.
but anws, the comprehension passage proved to be rather challenging for people who didn't really rad enough.
but for people who really read thoroughly, it was easy.
i thought that it was rather okay for me.
but i hate summaries cause i know i really really suck at it.
i knew that the secondary 4 express & secondary 5 normal students' paper were tough.
lols.

ahhh, & monday's my physics & social studies paper.

hope i can score for social studies cause i really suck at physics.

& tmr's finally saturday!
yeayness.
im always looking forward to saturdays cause it's like a day where i can
get out of uniforms & distress myself.
hehs.

oh oh, anw, came across a few profiles which belonged to some typical minahs.
asking to type & speak proper english when their tenses suck.
lols.
get a life.
no offence to others though.
[:
haaaaah.
im done.
& satisfied.
have a good day ya'll.

zuzu; aww. IMYT. [:
natt; lols. you're linked. [:
shirley; linked babe.

2007-04-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

OMFG.

yes, OMFG.
tmr's my english paper & i've yet to sleep.
ugghh.
damn it.
but on the other hand, i think it's okay cause it's only english.
haaaaah.
wtv.
so yeah, notice the new skin?
this itchy fingers of mine just can't be controlled.
searched randomly & there you have it, a new skin.
my eyes are sore now.
all because i've been looking at the screen for too long.
=x

oh oh, the day's good today.
i met my sweetest drug.
lols.
yeap, my ex-boyf.
we sorta hang out together at my house just now since i was so bored & everybody was pratically out doing something.
he even like cancelled his revision since he knew he was late.
ahaaa.
but nevertheless, he's kinda sweet.
awww.
& yea, good luck bby for tmr's practical.
omfg. i'm sounding like as if i have a bf already. *pukes.gags.

oh, anws,
my download for bleach's newest episode is finally complete.
i've waited for like a whole two hours already.
lols.
so, people..
wish me luck!
good night!
more updates tmr.
[:

dearest ex-boyf, ILY.

2007-04-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

FACT NO.1; IM VERY HAPPY.

yes, im like very happy.
not just happy, ecstatic.
lols.
all because of the ex-boyf.
no, we didn't get back together but i got something from him.
it's this;

but i got the white one instead.
hehs.
THANKYOULOVE!
[:
i totally like it.
moreover, it's a whole 30GB.
heeeee.

anyways, my exams are this friday.
first paper will be on friday & it's english.
ugh.
how i just hate the word exams.
& sometimes, i don't understand why the hell we need exams.
spend so much money just so some certificate.
perdon me for sounding so naive but i really can't help it.
why have all sorts of uniform & school systems when you can do it just like the private schools?
-_____________-"
school just suck.
& hell yea, you guessed it right, i haven't even touched a single book of mine to be exact.
lols.
im not proud.
neither am i ready to fail.
wtv.

anws, i need to eat.
update again tmr.
[:

ithinkiloveyou.

2007-04-22T02:17:00.000+08:00

I DON'T FEEL LIKE MY MUM'S MY FRIEND ANYMORE.
I THINK I'M STARTING TO HATE MY FAMILY.
TEENAGE LIFE SUCKS.
SERIOUSLY.
='[

2007-04-21T11:53:00.000+08:00

it's saturday!
& my love is not working but i am.
-____________-''
read:love is ex-boyf.

but i love saturdays.
& sundays but sundays are a bit mor tiring than saturdays.
wtv.
anyways, to people whom i've smsed about the funfair thingy, please inform me by wednesday, NEXT WEEK.
that's my deadline.
& i would appreciate if you guys could help me.
lols.

aaaaahhhhh.
im bored.
i wanna bathe.
oh anw, went to eat somewhr with mummy & bestie.
pics to be posted real soon.
[:

2007-04-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

i want my lost love, not any jerk who can easily make me cry.
he who can make me melt over his stupid sweet talks.
he whose jokes can make me laugh over a million times even if you were to rewind it countless times.
he whose voice i must hear all night before i sleep.
he whose hugs is so warm that i feel loved.
he whose lips just so kissable that i wouldn't kiss another.
he whose care is only priceless.
he is the only one i would ask for.

ex-boyf, life's worthless without you.
i need you.
i want you.
here by my side.
just you.
not any other.

i feel like drinking tonight.
imy.
ex-boyf.
where are you?

2007-04-14T11:51:00.000+08:00

I WOKE UP & SUDDENLY GOT SLAPPED BY MY DAD CAUSE HE THOUGHT THAT TODAY IS A WEEKDAY & I DIDN'T GO SCH.
-___________________________-
ASSHOLE.

HAVE A NICE SATURDAY YAW!

2007-04-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

eh it's friday already la siah!
LOL.
i love fridays, saturdays & sundays.
haaaaah.
actually, im kinda frustrated right now.
my pc's acting like a real bitch & i feel like just restarting but it'll be a waste of time.
]:

ahh anw, i feel like i miss lot of people right now.
like KHAIRUL,
LILY&SAI. REA. NANI. JAZA. CHIPP&DALE. MAI. FRANK -___-.
& some more people i forgot.
=x
oh, & i wanna hang out with EFFAH.
haahaha.
aiyoh.
tmr's sat.
but im sure it's gonna be shitty.
i seriously feel like going swimming before heading to work.
but i dunno la.
-_________________________________-

okay la.
this is like so random.
i wanna buy that grey topshop bag & that white&gold esprit bag!
aiyoh.
but i can only get the grey one by sunday.
i can't wait.

aaaaahhhhhhh.

today, i feel like without you, i feel incomplete.
imy love.

2007-04-11T19:04:00.000+08:00

my random thoughts.

have you ever thought that somebody would ever stab you in the back without you realising it?
i didn't.
sometimes, some people would do anything in the name of popularity.
and that, is well, absurd.
i'm the sorta person who never likes to care about what one likes, what one dresses like & so on.
i think more about myself than the person who is out of reach or somebody whom i don't really know.
this internet world proves to be more challenging.
more than 3 years, i've been here.
constantly, improving my skills, getting to know more people.
& mind you, i don't just get to know people for the sake of having more friends on my myspace/friendster or even adding the number of people to my cell's phonebook.
whoever who does it, is crazy.
and of course, there's this crazy thing called fashion.
i mean,who doesn't like fashion?
i do.
but there's also this thing called originality isn't it?
i dont' like following people for goodness sake.
evrything i do, i follow my heart.
& duhh, i don't use my parent's money to buy all my stuff.
i use my own money & im proud of it.
well, some people are just so inferior that they wanna let the whole world know that they are the best.
the most perfect.
please, tell me somethig new will you?
cause, nobody's perfect.
& that's for sure.
unless you're god of course.
i don't have any grudges against you.
i seriously don't.
say whatever you wanna say.
im deafening my ears.
[:

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hello people.
so today, is WEDESDAY.
& again, i didn't attend school.
-_______________-

don't ask me why.
look at my profile & there's this sentence;
"a sophomore who's not interested in studying anymore."
hell yea, i don't.
im so lacking of motivation.
someone please help me?
[:

ohwells, watched the hindi movie; DHOOM2.
sweetness.
aishwarya rai is so hot!
i mean, she really has the figure.
unlike me.
]:
shall not blaber anymore.

alrightey.
have a good evening/night.

2007-04-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN ALERT!

lol.

changed my skin.
yea yea.
updating later.
[:
goood day people!

2007-04-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

WARNING; POST IS TYPED IN MALAY. LOL.

okay uh, ni last eh for today.
aku lupe siol nak ckp psl gi swimming tadee.

da lepas aku punyer badan mcm hitam legam kan, aku teros naek uh, mandi.
haaaaaah.
abe dabes mandi, mesti mau make-up mah.
lol.
abe abe abe, aku tgh bbual ngn si hanah tuu..
tau2, dier ckp..
"EH?!"
gitu uh.
abe aku mcm, "ape sial dier ni? aku bbual ngn dier psl laen, tibe2 dier EH?!"
siol uh.
skali tak semene2, ader satu jantan gile masok toilet pmpan.
muke dier rilek siol.
aku da mcm nk campak aku punyer wet bikini kat muke dier.
tak bedek punyer sial.
abe dier nmpak kite, dier malu..
aper lagee, klua uh.
careless sial.
org yg tgh swimming kat tu deep pool pon tgk dier.
hahahahahaha.
da mcm aku.
pegi poly skali termasok toilet laki.
LOL.
tu part mmg aku besar punyer bongok uh.
aku pn tak tau knp.
CB sia.

ahh da uh, aku nk tdo.

eh khai, takmo step tak kenal eh. kau kental kau tak nak ckp.
HAHAHAHA.
tak la.
sry.

okay bye la krg.

2007-04-10T15:36:00.000+08:00

i seriously don't understand her.
i don't even know why the hell she has to throw tantrums at me.
at least i came to help. at least she could rest a little.
so, this is what i get yeah?
& yea, i earn so fucking little & i have to like to you guys HALF OF MY PAY?!
omg.
i RARELY ask for money except for school.
are you guys so MONEY FACED?
i can't say that can i?
people would go, "oh! she's so disrespectful!"
& then, you would really care about what others think that letting your own child suffer is not a mere problem for you.
hell, FUCK, IT'S ALL AN ACT LA!
im seriously sick that i feel like leaving home & never coming back.
these things are seriously getting on my nerves.
sooner or later, im gonna burst.
fo sure.
just wait.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

today's cool uh.
cabot school with bestie.
went swimming & gelare since today, the waffles are half price.
lols.
im becoming more & more tanned!
yeayness.
okay done.
im seriously not in the mood.
thanks to you uh mom.
satu ari, kau bace pon baek uh.

& when things are said & done, we will look back & wished we could rewind the unwanted parts.
p.s; i loveyou.

2007-04-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

LOLs.
so it seems that everybody finds it weird whenever i blog in malay.
it's once in a while la babies.

so, changed the song.
"korang mesti fikir aku gile, pakai lagu lame nie."
lol.
it's nice.
had it months inside my cell & im still not sick of it yet.
[:

TODAY SUCKS.
yessa.
i went to school reluctuantly.
i mean, who does it willingly?
i dilly dallied.
missed english lesson.
hahaaa.
i hate english la.
she keeps talking unnecessary stuffs.
i always feel like falling asleep.

when i reached class, the usual asshole, JONATHAN was fucking asleep.
idk what he did ytd night man.
must be busy helping with the construction like a bangla.
-_________-''

& as usual la, mdm teo asked me.
"atikah, why are you late?"
gave her my pink slip & my mc for last thursday.
[read; pink slip - a slip indicating that you're late & that you've report to the general office.]
everybody was like, "wah atikah! you very early!"
such sarcasm early in the morning.
was almost pissed off but i couldn't let something so small ruin my day can it?
anw, luckily, i didn't shout at the moron for sitting at my place for what you could say the millionth time.
today's his both lucky & unlucky day.
lucky. - i didn't shout at him.
unlucky. - lost his N73. LOL.

the rest of the day of school was okay.
bestie & me skipped malay lessons.
-______________________________-
malay's like so whatever.
& after school, went to lot 1 & to bestie's house.
[:

OMG. ria's[radio station] playing the avril lavigne, girlfriend song.
im so sick of it.
haiyoh.
don't understand how some people can still listen to it.

ahh yeaaa. okay i'mma reply to your babies' tags.
LOLS.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

REPLIES;

hanah; giler kape? dier la mrepek. LOLS.
lily; LOLs. okay bagos. popular pulak lagu lost prophets tu eh. haaaah.
rea; HAHAHAHA. eh krg klaka uh. okay set. just give me a beep uh. i miss ya'll.
nani; haha. ahh. dier g ngan khai & mat.
effah; LOL. IMY BABE! hahahaha. yea la, im motivated by some friends who keep on updating la.
lily; LMFAO. cute can word dier.
raily; HAHAHA. HELLO HELMETHEAD! you're linked babe. [:
ladypink; it's done baby! [:
effah; yeaaah! how'd you know?
mzreef; you're relinked babe!
nani; LOLS. okay, kau klaka uh babe. tapi mcm sweet gitukan kau miss dier everyday. haha. IMYT!
ninieLALAK; hahaha. who doesn't?! yusrazlini kaaan? haha. will link ya babe. [;
lily; sial la ly! you're the only 'lily' inside my phonebook siaaah. hahaha. but nvm la you nvr reply. [:
ida-rlingg; hahahhaa. klaka kaaan? lol.
effah; hahaha. yeah, finally! LOLS.
bloghopper; hahaa. i understand la. i knw it's weird. i find it wierd also la sometimes. haha.
ira; lols. hello ira! [:

last but not least.
i'd like to show you guys my taik face!

"CB. THE FACE VERY SLUTTY SIAH." -kenneth.

2007-04-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

eh okay.
ytd was fun.
okay la.
like so so.
bestie accompanied me the whole day.
msged lily, she nvr rply.
-_________________________-

so so so, ytd i sat whilst in the train la.
then then then, ader satu jantan gile nie, nyanyi-nyanyi kat dlm train, fikir dier nye suare sedap.
pantat.
-_-''
nyanyi lagu melayu pulak tu. abe ringtone lagu temptation. please eh.
da gitu takper, dier asek amek gmbr srg2, tangkap hensem.
padahal sememek. mataer dier lagee lagee sememek.
like wth.

then then then, sekali si laki muke tak senonoh tu nmpk kwn dier.
due2 minah.
satu mcm ice-box bergerak uh but the other one okay but a lil' fatter than me.
then, pasal aku punyer pandai tak bwk headphone, terpakse aku mcm jadi bodoh tgk tgk orang.
skali aku ter-eavesdrop drg punyer conversation.
lols.

laki muke tak senonoh; "eh korang nak pergi mane?"
minah no.1(yang tk gemok sgt); "kite? nak pergi spy mataer die. (icebox punye mataer)"
laki muke tak senonoh; "asl ngan mataer kau?"
icebox bergerak; "aku suspect die ade mataer laen uh! die asek pegi lakeside aje! dulu die tak mcm gini siak."
laki muke tak senonoh; "skali die memotek eh?"
icebox bergerak & minah no.1(yang tk gemok sgt); "mrepek uh kau. kite maner ade mcm kau siak! gile. ntah ntah kau yang slalu memotek."

fact no 1; muke da tak senonoh. ape? memotek. so the mat&minah.
fact no. 2; i can't imagine their faces if they memotek. esp si couple sememek tu.
LOLS.

okay, then skali kat wdl, bestie, being the one to stand, wanted to sit.
ni kali kite duduk dekat opposite drg uh.
laki yang muke tak senonoh tu da klua uh tapi.
so, tgl 3 muke bengok.
i didn't really care la abt what they did.
but then but then, ader satu part ni uh.
aku tgk la si muke sememek tu. (yang bukan minah eh)
first glance, okay.
second glance, aku da serious mcm nk tampar muke die.
nak tau knp?
aku ternampak dier pakai clip mickey mouse!
STEP CUTE SIAL!
mampos.
serious siak. muke da tue bangke abe maseh nak stp cute.
eyaaaargh.
aku teros takle take it seh tgk muke dier.

ohh, after we alighted, bestie told me that the sememek lives in cck & she knows her younger bro.
"adek dier hansem. aku tak tau knp kakak dier gini."
LOL.
lastly, bestie overheard yg si icebox bergerak tu ckp yang dier ader lagee 5 on the waiting list utk die.
gile.
i wonder how their faces look like.
haaaw~.

so, today, aku mcm bahagie la.
banyak customer.
abe lepas keje g tamp.
ate at food culture with khai.
aku blanje.
pas tu aku nangis banyak2.
pasal dier kate feeling dier takder nothing special.
MREPEK UH!
binget binget!

okay last, budak trolley boys niari baik uh.
aku tertinggal hp kat bustop when i was smoking with ina uh.
abe dier stg kat kedai aku, dier return.
sweet la eh.
thanks krg.

OKAY PEOPLE!
GOODNIGHT.

2007-04-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

eh mcm cb kan.
ader satu ang-moh ni mcm pantat uh.
die datang, die beli aku chocolate abe kate aku sweet.
gile kape?
sejak bile ni?
abe die kate kalau sape jadi mataer aku boleh mati pasal;
dapat chocolate sweet abe aku pon sweet.
sape ajar?
bilang aku.
hotak die.
nak chocolate extra cakap la.
okay, ni random eh.
like my first time gitu aku post pakai bahase melayu.
LOL.

oh anws, kesian eh budak-budak skrg.
mude-mude dah pregnant.
haiyoh.
pening siah tadee tgk kat poly.
eh okay la, aku nk pi makan chocolate.
lmao.
mrepek kaaan aku.
-___________________-"

2007-04-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

it's WEDNESDAY!
wednesday is stupid uh.
like seriously.
every mondays & wednesdays, i'm dismissed late.
later than any other days.
dismissing time = 4pm.
& every mondays & wednesdays' last period is MT.
-______________________-''
like how i wish i could trade the lessons for POA cause i always sleep during that lesson.
haiyah.

& just now, my malay teacher didn't come.
unfortunately, it was replaced by this stupid, slow, baku-speaking teacher.
lmao.
he kept speaking baku all the way & me & bestie was like laughing all the way through.
he's like ;
"Percakapan kamu jaga ya."
worst still..
"Apa yang lucu itu? Jangan ketawa ya!"

alamaaaak. i really felt like banging his head up the wall.
the more he said those, the harder we laughed.
asshole.
& with golemn(sahid,thesmallboy) around, the teacher got even more frustrated.
he kept disturbing, asking stupid questions of all sorts & irritating the teacher.
lmao.

then then then, towards the end of the day, there's this idiot called BG.
whenever he opens his mouth, it's full of filth, crap & lies.
& he boasted a few stuffs just now.
so i was like,
"omg. look who's talking?! ewww, crap. whatever!!"
i mean, even amirah calls him a laughing stock & hadi keeps saying that he shaves his legs.
what more?
-____________________-"
next time, i'll just design him a tee for him to wear.
written on it would be;
EH HELLO.
NAME AKU BAPOK GANAS.
AKU TAKDER BULU KAKI.
AKU RASE AKU HANSEM TAPI SUME KATE MUKE AKU MCM TAIK.
SO, STUPID GIRLS, NK JADI MATAER AKU?
oh yea, did i tell you that he boasts whenever he gets to fuck girls?
disgusting siah!

enough of that.
let's see..
I SO FUCKING THINK THAT I'M GETTING OBESE.
[people like saini & khairul are sure gonna agree straight out. lol]
reasons are that i ate countless meals today.
oh yea & i ate ice creams as well.
they make you fat.
like uber fat la.
& i am now.
im scared to even weigh myself.
haiyoh.
cbknn.

eh anw, yesterday i went swimming with khairul la siah!
super fun & exciting.
& today, he went with mat&friends.
&&&, he hasn't called me.
cbcbcbcbcbcbcb.

da la okay, karim(papa gua) mau pakai comp.
goodnight noodles!

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replies to tags;

[effah] ILYT! & you too take care. [:
[farrah] hahaha. awwwh. thanks. you take cre!
[nani] lol. who likes? you too babe!
[afra] you're linked too! [:
[anna] hahah. ydk? lols. eh anws, you twins are cuteness uh.
[lynn] i like this song! you like? lol.
[effah] woots! ILYT! (((:

conclusion; effah has the most number of tags.
i know this pointless but who cares kn?! haaaah!

2007-04-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

today is monday.
& it's fucking boring.
-______________-''
so let's see..

i didn't go school today.
i bet my malay teacher's been talking about me.
she said that if i ever come school for a full week, which was last week, it seems like a miracle.
-__________-''
malay is so boring.
like nani, i hate compositions.
i used to love them but i think i've gotten sick of writing.
so, all i ever did at home was bloghopping & posting proofs for my perfection trains.
perfection groups is my current obsession.
they seem cool.
lol.

i think i've bloghopped to a few blogs.
i tagged some but the others, like bleargh!
went to ly&sai's blog.
that idiotic saini.
wtf.
he called me 'mok' again.
& now it's public cause he posted a rant in his blog & mntioned it.
cbcbcb.
he just can't take it that i call him 'hero keling'.
lol.
the name just suits him.
hahaha.

anw anw anw, went to youtube, like kak yanni told me.
& viewed this vid.
it's NTU's survey.
funny.
watch watch watch okies?

so so so, im lazy to type more.
today is crap.
crap is today.
wtf.
oh yea, did i tell you that im all emo today.
been talking to khairul for what it seemed like all day.
haaah.
i kept crying.
im stupid.
yea, bodoh!
lmao.

i wanna eat fish slice noodle at JP!
lily, can accompany me one day?
haaaaah.
tmr, im gg swimming with zhafir & kyn.
i will swim with zhafir tmr & my syster's gonna watch.
she doesn't know how to swim!
hahaha.
i love swimming & swimming loves me.
crap.

hell, i have to tidy up this friggin house.
again.
haiyoh.
okaybye.

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replies to tags;

[nisa] updated.
[nani] you're relinked uh babe. yea, it's a picture of me & khai. -________-
[lily] yes babe, it's vivo. hahaa.
[nurel] hahaha. life's sometime's sucky & sometimes fun. heh. how's yours?
[nani] lol. thanks uh babe.
[bloghopper] lol. im not la. anws, thanks for dropping by. [:
[rea] lol. okay. but i didn't take it from him. da lamer siah tk bbual ngn dierrr.
[effah] will do babe! ily.
[hanah] sumpah kau giler. lol. & im not hot.
[iqahluluk] eh hello babe!
[natt] lol. awww, we miss you toos. whr've you been?
[nani] lost prophet's cool laaa. lol. i dunno la babe. but it's funny kaan?

conclusion; person with most number of tags - nani.
lol.
thanks for tagging babies!

2007-03-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION.

FUN FIESTA

VENUE; GREENRIDGE SECONDARY SCHOOL.
TIME; 9.00AM - 4.30PM

TICKETS ARE SOLD AT $10 EACH.
EACH TICKETS PRIMARILY CONSISTS OF 7 COUPONS.
THERE'LL BE LOADS OF GAMES & FOODS.
PLUS, A BIG BIG WATER TUB FOR ALL TO PLAY.
IT'S GONNA BE INTERESTING.
SO THEREFORE, DON'T MISS IT.
[:

ALL PROCEEDS WILL GO TO THE PRIME FUNDS FOR FUTURE SCHOOL UPGRADES.

INTERESTED PARTIES, PLEASE EMAIL ME AT PHASHION.STARR@HOTMAIL.COM
PLEASE INCLUDE FUNFAIR TICKETS AS RE SO THAT I WILL NOT MISTAKE IT FOR JUNK MAILS.
YOU ARE TO LEAVE YOUR CONTACT NUMBER, EMAIL ADDRESS, NAME & ADDRESS.
MEETING PLACE & TIME WILL THEN BE DECIDED FOR THE COLLECTION OF TICKETS & MONEY.
YOUR SUPPORT IS NEEDED.
THANKYOU.

2007-03-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

hello people.
back for updates.
the pictures up above are the result of my photography.
im still a rookie to this though.
& it's like EZ-600 can't compare to DSLR camera.
like duhh!

hahaa.
so, this was on last sunday.
went out with the bestfriend & the ex-boyf.
these are just like half of the pictures.
there's more but oh well, i'll post it some other time.
hehs.
the day was filled with fun & laughter.
i enjoyed myself throughout.

oh anws, the day before, i met with jaza, rea, the ex-boyf, sani, lily, mai & saini.
chilled out at marina square.
wasn't as noisy as it is supposed to be.
but yea, had fun overall.

as you can see, im lazy.
-.-''
im simply tired.
tired due to sch.
im in the midst of preparing for prelims as well as mid-year.
so, expect lesser updates okay babies?
forgive me tho.
(((:

haaah.
okay.
bye.

2007-03-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

yeay-ness.
so, yesterday was my daddy's birthday.
i think it was the best celebration ever for him.
lol.
anyways, i had to rush to my momma's workplace to decide & discuss about his present.
in the end, we bought him a Calvin Klein perfume.

CK one & CK eternity for men.
the new Euphoria for her was really sweet!
i wanna buy it.
lol.
& hell yea, the bottle's cute.
my momma's friend bought it.
it costs a friggin $144 i think.
& the smell is sweet as heaven.
haaah.
after buying his present, we headed to his friend's house.
cause they sorta cooked for my daddy.
what a VIP.
-.-''
we talked & had dinner together & suddenly somebody called.
it was a dj from RIA 89.7fm; zan sophian.
frankly, i don't even listen to the radio that much.
it's like so lame.
especially the malay station.
no offense.
ah yea, when my daddy received the call, he was speechless.
my mum on the other hand was giggling.
lol.
she sent an email in the afternoon actually.
so, yea & she forgot to tell me about it.
my daddy almost cried!
he's like so touched over what we guys did for him.
hahaha.
but whatever, now that his birthday is over, we can like bully him.
((((:
both me & my syster didn't go school today since we slept late yesterday.
& the irony is, my dad didn't even bicker.
haha.
i guess he's still thrilled by the surprises yesterday.
oh yea, i think im gonna use some of his perfume starting from today cause CK one is unisex.
lol.
so, okay.
i've updated for now.
ignore my tag at my tagboard.
hehs.
take care babies.
(((:

i think i've fallen all over again for you.
i love you.

2007-03-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello babies.
(:
im back!
lol.
i've changed skin.
took it from blogskins.
im just uber lazy to make my own.
haaah.
im actually really sleepy.
but i just don't know where this bloody energy is coming from.
oh oh oh, since my daddy's birthday is like in a few hours time, i'd like to wish him a;

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY DADDY!

lol. you're an old man now.
hahaha.
& yea, please increase the amount of pocket money.
(((:

so, let's see..
the picture above is taken at aiport as well as sentosa on saturday.
i went to 4 places that day; airport, sentosa, work & esplanade.
so, i didn't sleep on that friday night & on the saturday morning, i was all set & ready to go to those places.
i planned to go to granny's crib at amk as my camera was there & i wanted to do some photography at changi airport, sentosa & esplanade.
i went out, all fresh & ready to meet bestie with my camera stand & a bloody big bag.
-.-''
i suggested we took the taxi as i was too lazy to sit in the train& more over, there'll be no time.
so i was charged a wholesome 25 buckeroos.
normal i guess.
haah.
& went to T1.
without the camera & without any motive except for to have breakfast & also to meet the ex-boyf.
lol.
we waited for them at burger king while we had our breakfast.
the ex-boyf said he wanted to bring his friend & wtf, it was sani.
hahaha. not that i'm complaining. im just trying to say that he looks kinda different with the hair.
(((:
oh, we chilled for a while & they had to get back to work.
-.-''
so, we two grrlies went to take the sky train to terminal two.
it was like my first time taking the sky train & i was like omfg! it's fucking cool.
hahaha.
& we took the mrt at T2.
so, at the mrt, while on the way to sentosa, both of us saw a grrl.
a big sized girl.
i don't care whether she's big sized or not but hell, she's uber damn blardy hot!
she really carried herself well that she looked even better than a skinny white girl.
yea, & she had the flair toos.
she's my inspiration.
lol.
i mean, when you think about those big girls who aren't afraid to flaunt their stuffs, you'll feel motivated.
you'll feel like, ''what's there to be ashamed of? c'mon! you should love yourself!"
yea, that's i think it is.
so then, i went to sentosa with bestie.
we went to the beach.
it was really short & i got tanned.
&&%##%&&*
i wasn't even prepared.
i'm planning to have a real tan the week after next.
(:
we chilled out at vivo toos.
the time was short overall.
but we really enjoyed ourselves.
i went to work also on that day.
-.-''
wth.
by midday, i was experiencing maigraine.
all due to the excessive heat at sentosa.
bleargh!
i was banging my head up the wall & pulling my hair.
it was too painful.
even two tablets of panadols couldn't relieve it.
oh wells, i hate whinning.
at night, met up with jaza & nani; the sweet babes.
like it's been a long time since we've met up.
haaah.
went esplanade.
met up with lily, fye, dan, saini (gila) & fye's syster.
was fun.
lily was like hyper la tt day.
lol.
ohkay, im done.
be updating again soon.
((((:

2007-03-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

hey people.
im really really sorry for not updating properly.
you guys must be sick of my blog for now.
-.-''
i wanna tell you guys that if you don't see me updating here then, go to my myspace a/c; www.myspace.com/phashionstarr & check out the updates at my blog there instead.
alrightey?
im getting sick of this stupid blog.
but i still love it& i don't wanna delete it.
why?
idk.
still, i'll be checking on this blog too like i do daily.
so, yeaa.
see you guys at either blog yea.
for today's entry, please proceed thr.
alrightey babies?
take care for now.
(:

2007-03-10T11:40:00.000+08:00

hello sweethearts.
first & foremost, both my myspace&friendster layouts have been changed.
check it out yaw! (:
it's finally the holidays!
yay-ness!
& hell yeah, it's also a saturday!
well, of course i have to work but i can't wait to meet some people.
((:
ohh yea, pray that i have new pictures please.
so that i'll update more.
haha.
& yea yea, please look foward to my new skin also anytime next week.
im damn blardy sick of this skin already.
it's so boring.
-.-''
ahh yea, did i tell you guys im sucha boring person?
ysterday, i was talking to somebody who was unfortunately in a bad mood.
so, i was left being quiet all the way throughout the conversation.
i didnt knw what to say & my mind was utterly BLANK.
haiss.
so yea, i'll declare myself a boring person now.
hoho.
& somebody who simply doesnt know how to entertain others or make people feel better.
yea yea yea.
ohwell, i wanna bathe laa.
gotta work.
weeee~
p.s; anyone wanna accompany me watch "im a cyborg but that's ok"?

these memories won't leave me.
i love you.

2007-03-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

hello all you beautifool people.
(:

those two pictures above are taken on friday.

it's up on friendster but not up yet on myspace cause i have yet to do some editing.

heh.

i look pale on the second one cause i was sick.

& i still am.

-.-''

im suffering from a sickening cough & flu.

it's really irritating cause it's not like it's mild.

hais.

oh yeaa, i shall tell you guys about today.

it was overall a nice day tho im feeling a bit shagged.

dan, fye, frank & the other guy (i don't remember his name!) came to my workplace & they received chocolates!

haha.

it was really nice meeting them.

frank was uber funny tho he was partly disgusting.

haha. i can't believe he's chipp's uncle. heh.

we chatted & after a while, they went to some other place & i was back to being a loner at work once again.

suntec was surprisingly crowded with the chinese.

daddy said that it's one of their last days of their new year. he said something like they only have 15 days of new year which isn't like us, muslims whose new year is a whole month.

is it true? to those chinese bloghoppers, please fill me in with more info. (:

i closed a little early today.

was just sick & tired of the crowd.

thought of heading bugis to buy a topshop bag but my cough & flu has turned me into a disastrous lazy & mood-less monster.

evidence?

usually, on saturdays, i'd dress a bit more complicatedly rather than just jeans & t-shirt & i would definitely put on a pair of sneakers or something.

but today was different.

anyways, moving on.

anyone went for the underage party at DXO just now?

i wouldn't know if it wasn't for yasseer.

before going back, i sat with him & smoked while he waited for his friend.

it's funny how he could go clubbing with just a friend.

haha.

but he has his reasons somehow which i'd rather not discuss it here.

at 10, i finally decided not to go home but to join chipp & the rest.

esplanade was fully packed.

not with chinese this time but with malay youngsters.

there were a lot of mats & minahs around.

-.-''

over at esplanade, frank wasn't there. the only people that's left are chipp, fye, that guy, mai & another grrl whom i don't know.

they were about to play cards when i came.

as usual, when it comes to card games, i never get it right.

haaah.

i talked to fye & vice versa.

eventually, after a few minutes, saini & lily joined us.

they were really fun people. (:

& yea, we all made a move around 11.

i took a cab back home.

& so, im watching bleach now.

still.

im at episode 89 now.

ohwells, i gotta sleep. in a few hours, i have to work.

((:

p.s; imissyou, love.

2007-03-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

hey babies.
i hop you guys missed me cause i sure did miss you guys.
heh.
im sorry for not updating lately.
i've been very lazy & mood-less of late.
i don't really know why..
haaah.
okay, so anyways, i've been also bloghopping of late..
went to hop on a lot of people's blog.
& i went to idahchix's blog.
she was saying all those things about some kids who have been wearing black from top to bottom.
well, it's not that im critising them either but sometimes, amongs those, there are like some poseurs.
some even transformed from a complete mat/minah to a complete disastrous emo/rocker or whatsover shit.
im not saying that they don't have the right to do so but if you wanna change, change & don't even leave a trace of who you were before.
otherwise, you'll end up being called a poseur.
like some people would say, if you wanna do something, do it with pride & determination. don't leave it hanging.
((((:
back to me.
haha.
like i said, i've been lazy of late.
skipping school is already like a hobby to me.
haha.
dad's been bickering but i can't help it.
he keeps saying that i'm wasting my time cause i love staying up all night which he detests so much.
& he says im mad cause i'm addicted to bleach.
yes i'm mad for bleach..
all thanks to my elder brother.
hoho.
& all thanks to my elder brother also that my father is friggin addicted to the stupid manager game.
from football manager 2006, now he's got the new football manager 2007.
wtf.
i hate that stupid idiotic game.
it destroys the hope of my frequent watch for bleach.
-.-''
oh yeaaa, i can't wait for next week.
i wanna watch the movie that's starring rain!!!
he's like uber hot & he makes me melt!
hahhaa.
im sry but today, im seriously lazy to post pics.
will post it some other day yea?
hehs.
back to the movie..
the trailer itself looks hilarious & it really interest me upon the first look.
haha.
im gonna watch it once it's on.
((((((:
ohwell babies, i gotta sleep.
im beat. beat. beat.
heh.
have a nice saturday!
ooohh! i cant wait to meet chipp & his gf. (:

im killing lonliness with lonliness.
geddit?

2007-02-19T12:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO sweethearts.
first & foremost, happy chinese new year to all the chinese.
may you have a wonderful & prosperous year throughout.
((:
okay.
so, last saturday was a holiday for me.
i needn't work.
& i went to watch..
GHOST RIDER!!!
hohoho.
it was uber cool i tell you!

after watching this movie, i felt like i wanna have a bike also siaa!
aaahahaa.
okay, i knw im crappin.
but, the bike's so cool.
hehs.
(((((((((:
oh yea, i watched the movie with khairul & bestie; hanah.
i guess that was the last meeting for me & him.
well, i really felt cheated & used but i dun wanna lose contact with him.
i don't care abt all that..
all i care abt is hearing his voice everyday..
knowing what he's up to..
& all the daily shits he love to tell me.
im serious.
call me absurd, mad, crazy.. whatever..
i don't give a fuck abt it.
i still love him.
maybe, more than ever before..
i guess, maybe, you'll only knw hw much you love tt person after he's left you.
& that's true.
cause..
im facing it right now.
it's as painful as ever.
painful than any other fights i've had with anybody.
i just can't face the fact that he's not my boyfriend anymore.
but im trying to..
trying to accept the fact.
trying to pick up the pieces that was once broken & mending it back together.
& it's like im bleeding everytime the pieces touches my hand..
it's hard..
everyday is like a new sad discovery for me.
everyday, i learn something new.. that is sad..
i don't know.
im not up for it yet..
haiss..
ohwells, just now.. i had to work.
i worked from three to ten.
&&&, i swear that im never gonna wear high heels ever again.
i was like walking in pain all the day from the start.
omg.
i guess i shud have asked them to expand the shoe or maybe just ask for a size bigger.
its really damn blardy painful.
& guess what..
i waited for a taxi for a whole 50 minutes without sitting.
i was swearing all over siaa.
i swore to myself.
i swore to all the blardy taxis for not being able to pick up passengers like me.
i could have called..
yes.
but hell, my prepaid was damn blardy low i tell ya.
**&%$^&%^*(^*(^^
at around 11, i finally got a taxi.
lucky for me, the uncle was vry nice.
i mean, really nice.
he talked to me, made me laugh.
haha.
but he's not the only one who made me laugh..
yasser, the royce boy told me about his valentine's day date & made me laugh a whole lot more.
it was fun.
haha.
laughing is fun & is a good feeling.
well, i wish everyday was a laughing day for me.
heh.
anws, when i got hme, i laughed again..
at my mum's lame but funny jokes.
hahs.
maybe today wasnt a bad day afterall.
i had like 3 periods of laughing overall.
hoho.
crap. crap. crap.
aaahh, i wanna watch bleach.
it's finally loaded.
& yea, aftertt, im gonna sleep.
tmr's a sch day.
& after sch, im gonna work out.
i have to!
(((((((((((((((:
love ya'll!
toodles!

2007-02-16T11:22:00.000+08:00

hellu all!
i've got two new pictures of myself to show.
heeeeee.
(((:

yeayness.
at last.
haahaa.
its been some time since i've posted pictures of myself.
hoho.
anws, i think im turning into a shopaholic.
been buying quite a number of stuffs lately.
okay okay, i'll tell you guys.

SUNDAY;
yellow mustard shirt & black beaded necklace frm F21.
lonsdale waterbottle for sch.

MONDAY;
stationeries.
foolscap papers, files, paperclips, pencils & stickers for me & bestie.
((:

TUESDAY;
a polka dot dress.

WEDNESDAY;
new pair of jeans.
a pair blue & grey heels.
blue overalls.
suspenders.

------------------------
okay. tts what i've been buying of late.
i think i've spent like $300 in like 4 days?
yeaaa, like that laa.
& i think i'm heading town later to check out what else i can buy.
i want more dresses!
hehs.
well, i guess that's the only way to distress myself.
i've been feeling shitty of late.
everytime i see couples walking around, feeling so happy & being so loving, i'll light a stick.
of course it's stupid but it kills me.
& that's why i will vent my anger on shopping, alone.
people may look at me like im a mad, mad person but i don't give a f***.
hoho.
& though the new clothes don't make me new, i don't give a shit about it.
((((((((((:

& & &, guess what..
i've not been attending sch for four days already.
im really not in the mood siaa this week.
haiss.
common test is only like next week seyy.
aiyohhh.
but wtv, i think i'll prove to my teachers, peers & parents that i CAN do it!
hahaha.
i think i really am mad. haha.

------------------------------------------------

i saw this thingy at nurul aini's blog.
check it out yaw.
it's really funny.
(((:
"enjit-enjit semut"

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okay then.
im off.
(((:
take care yall!

i think i shall put my feelings aside & think about yours again & again.
isn't that what you want?
i mean what i say baby.

2007-02-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

FOR THOSE WHO HAS BEEN ASKING THE TITLE OF THE PREVIOUS SONG, IT'S;
THE PIECES DON'T FIT ANYMORE BY JAMES MORRISON.
A NEW SONG HAS BEEN UPLOADED;
LITTLEST THINGS BY LILY ALLEN.

this song reminds me of you.
you're missed.

2007-02-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

hello babies.
its another day.
finally..
decorations for CNY were up.
& ohh, just now, previous O level candidates came to collect their results.
some cried..
some laughed..
there were different reactions.
its said that for most of the subjects, they scored above national level.
congratulations people.
well, if not for my stupidity, i would have joined them.
haiss.
but ohwells, its still okay.
((((:
i've been very very tired of late.
there's been a lot of activity going on.
lucky for me, two of them is already done.
which lefts me with..

- buskers corner [x]
- CNY deco & hamper [x]
- common tests [ ]
- geog project presentation [ ]

all of the above really requires a lot of hardwork man.
& seing my friends do so well for sch, i wanna be like them toos!
hoho.
aaahh, anws, i wanna show you guys a picture..
a picture of someone whom i have a big crush on..

RAIN!
aww! he's so HOT!
hahahahaha
i really think i have a big crush on him maan.
hahaha
<3333333 size="2">as days pass, the pain keeps killing.
it's much more stronger than ever.
help me, love.

2007-02-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

i guess all this while, i was wasting my time with someone who doesnt care abt how i feel.
someone whom i cared so much for that i didn't care how i felt.
all i want was for him to be happy..
friends called me stupid, family called me foolish.
still, nothing stopped me from waiting.
nothing stopped me from constantly thinking about him.
i spend my days endlessly thinking about him.
again & again, i wondered the possibilities to share my happiness & sorrows with him.
will it still be the same?
today, everything was shattered into pieces.
my heart was broken.
now, it's shattered.
i just can't seem to pick up the pieces anymore.
why are you just so heartless?
why the hell do you have to make me suffer?
haiss.
this time round, i shan't say no.
it's possible.
i will move on.
))"=

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heyya people.
been sooper busy.
yeap.
i had my buskers' corner just now.
buskers' corner is an event where every week, various classes get to showcase their talents.
it's apart of the school's english programme.
basically, students can dance, sing, act, recite poems etc.
so, my class performance was just now.
i was the MCee together with a classmate, shirley.
since the class wasn't as usually enthusiastic as my previous classes, they ended up doing a poem, book review & last but not least, a song sung by ME.
yes yes, i sang the song LISTEN by BEYONCE, a soundtrack of the movie DREAMGIRLS.
((:
it's been quite sometime that i've sung in front of a crowd.
haaahs.
was a bit shaky at first but aftr a while, i was pretty OK.
anws, i went back at 7 plus just now because i had to finish up the CNY hamper.
but it's still not yet finished.
i guess everything will be get completed by tmr.
im beat actually.
hehs.
so, i guess im heading to bed.
gd night yaw.
(((:
p.s; to babe named EFFAH.. congrats grrl. im so happy for you. be happy aight!

what do you think it is for me boy?
i still want you back baby..
but you're acting like you don't wanna know.

2007-02-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

i still can remember the yesterdays.
i need you close, here with me.
those kisses, those hugs.
i need them, i need you.
why can't this feelling just fade away?
hais.
i just can't seem to forget you.
im rotting with the old memories.
im sinking.
i need to pull through.
why can't you just give it a chance?

i feel extraordinarily sad today. i don't know why.
<333

2007-02-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

hey all!
hows my new skin?
i have a craze for yellow colored stuffs right now.
(((:
anws, how's all of you.
i've been fine & of course, very busy.
i have a project to submit by monday, class decorations & hamper to be completed by friday & common test is coming up.
what's more, im working.
so therefore, i've no time to blog.
fortunately, i didn't have any homework for yesterday so i managed to finish this skin quickly.
im so sorry i have no pictures to show you guys.
):
somehow, i may be taking pictures tmr because after work, my bestie & me are gonna head to vivo & chill at "pacific coffee company".
i wanna buy those lonsdale flip-flops as well as some clothes/accessories from F21.
hehs.
vivo is like kinda boring actually but i only go there to enjoy the sceneries over at the rooftop.
it's a nice place to cry actually..
haha.
but somehow, it seems that people go there with their gfs & bfs.
so everytime i see them, i'll be a bit down.
how i wish i could turn back time.
but wtv.
i dun care now.
aahh, im gonna bathe & tidy up the house & after which, will be heading for work.
have a nice saturday guys.
<333333

cheer up. im here for you. (:

2007-01-25T10:18:00.000+08:00

aiyoooo.
im at sch right now.
i just came like 15 minutes ago.
haw haw!
i gave the letter stating why the hell i was late.
i said i had diahorrea when actually, i don't.
hahaha.
so, yeaaaa.
i came, all fresh but hungry.
ohh anws eishaa,
i don't think many will be celebrating on the day itself.
it's a school day seyy.
& its like i don't think many people will be out.
even i end school at 6pm.
((((:
& effah..
im really busy seyy..
i wanna meet you.
of course i do!
but well, maybe when i've settled down a bit laa okaay.
hehs.
okay okay.
i havta work on my project now.
(((((:
<3333

2007-01-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

hey all.
im really really tired right now.
without fail, i will have a few assignments to complete everyday.
aaaagghhhhh.
anw anw anw.
valentine's day is ard the corner!!!!!!
okay, so...
im not celebrating it with anybody this year except for myself.
maybe after sch, i'll go town..
buy myself a mrs field's cookie cake, a card & a cute lil' gift & make myself feel like
im MR BEAN.
-.-''
it's not a day which i'll be looking foward to anymore you know.
haiyoo.
and and and.
i wanna buy dresses for a change.
& make myself look real sixties.
im bored with my current stage.
im fat.
bloated & ugly.
nobody wants me...
)))))))))"=
aaaaahhh wtv.
sometimes i think too mucchh uh seyyy.
ohh btw, just now, the blardy bitch returned to my home just to collect her clothes.
(my elder syster)
i was hoping she would collect all but she just collected a few.
her clothes is starting to take up a lot of space in my room.
i don't really hate her sia last time..
but now, when i realised tt she's not respecting my mum & dad, & also, thinks she's a fucking princess, im kinda angry with her.
hate is too strong of a word to use it on ur own siblings.
she really does need help i guess.
wtv uh.
i dun wanna sound like those typical brats who keep pitying my syster.
bluek bluek bluek.
oh oh oh.
i wanna jump back to tt topic; sch.
do you know?
if you miss school for one day, it means the gossips that are worth like 2 hrs?
yeap yeap, tt happened to me laa sey.
i missed sch on tuesday & at night, bestie called me & we gossiped for like an hr or two.
hawhawhaw!
i so love gossipping with my bestie.
we make our day happy for each other.
regardless what.
hohoho.
sounds happy aren't we?
ohhh kaaaay laa.
i better get going..
i wanna do my assignments.

i don't know why i can't forget you. & anw, i don't want to.
cause you're special.
((((:
enjoy your day, love.

2007-01-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

hello people.
im baaaaccckk!
well, i guess, i shud say im updating & im not exactly back yet.
i have several reasons to why this is happening.
i'll explain later.
for now, i wanna tell you guys that i miss the blogging world.
as well as myspace, as well as friendster.
maybe not that much on friendster cause it's getting boring somehow.
& plus, of course it shud get boring over time..
especially when you've no time to snap a picture or maybe you have time..
but the picture wouldn't always turn out the way you wanted it.
at least, in a nice, decent way of course.
ahh, let's get back to my reasons.
firstly, i need not explain i guess.
it's written on every school girl/boy's blog whenever their blog seems like they need serious attention.
yes, it is SCHOOL.
S.C.H.O.O.L
it's more hectic & busier than before.
everytime i get home, all i ever think of is sleep.
& after a few hours of sleep, i'll wake up again & get my homework for the day, done.
after everything's settled, i will get back to sleep again.
i feel like i have no life.
thanks to school. -.-'
but nonetheless, i think being transferred to NA stream, the pace is much more slower & things are much more easier.
not that i wanna be boastful about.
alright.

so, second reason..
MY COMPUTER SCREEN EXPLODED!
im not so shocked anyway.
just a lil' bit of anger in me.
of all time, it had to pass out when im about to embark & start on that big geography project of mine.
eventhough i got like two computers, one is already being conquered by my dad everyday.
whenever he comes back from work, he'll be like hogging on to the computer like it's his life.
& for me, i'll be like so mad.
im asking my mum to get us a new computer or maybe a new laptop soon.
nowadays, school's been really demanding.
whatever i do, it really involves a lot of research.
(well at least not for subjects life malay, english, POA & emaths )

the third reason?
working life.
so how's it?
am i a supergrrl or what?
im like juggling between work, school & my depression & grief over losing the ex-bf (mind you, im not like some bitch who can forget their ex-bfs easily)
its not easy, really.
& im trying very hard not to fall out of track.
even or the up-coming hols on march, i'll be going on a 5 days, 4 nights trip with my sch mates for a field trip to sarawak.
so, i guess there's no time to rest.

aaaahh...
anyways people, i appreciate your tags.
will reply to it soon.
maybe i'll try & update again when im doing my project.
-multitask, that's the word.
haahaa.
((:
take care you babies.

i just can't let you off my mind.

2007-01-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

UPDATES!
301206-010107;
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went to m'sia with my family.
didn't get to go countdown or wht so ever.
hais.
anws, i slept over at a relative's house.
the atmosphere is so different, compared to singapore.
it was a kampung.
although im not used to it..
i tried blending in so as not to embarass my parents.
((:
i was a good kid back then i guess.
hahaha.

remember the floods?
at some part of the village, the waters were still there.
some reached the roof, cars got drowned, furnitures destroyed & snakes plus crocodiles entered their houses.
it was real tragic for them.
as for our part, we really pitied them so, we collected a total of seven big bags, full of clothes & 40kg of rice plus a few hundred dollars for them.
well that's the least we could do.
i can't imagine how the students are going to study with their uniforms & school books washed away.
it looks real sad.
everywhere, it was kinda chaotic.
haiyo.
still, i pray & hope that things will get better for them.
(((:

020107;
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went to grab a pair of new uniform for myself from jurong east.
went with mom & dad.
after that, went to queensway to alter my skirt.
at the same time, i bought a new pair of jeans, a new flimsy bag, some earrings & a pair of new flip flops.
while waiting for my skirt to be altered, dad drove us to redhill & made us wait in the car.
he wanted to cut his hair.
so, we waited in the car.
when my dad returned, he was sulking all over.
haha.
he said the barber is sucha stupid idiot & that he's not satisfied with his hair.
heee.
the part when he said the barber is sucha stupid idiot is what i agree because he didnt really cut properly & even the back wasn't shaved.
pity my dad.
(((:
we went queensway back to collect my skirt & off we went to west coast.
i ate 'nasi ayam penyet'.
my mum & dad each ate some soupy noodle.
after filling up our stomachs, we went to mustafa!
my syster & i like to call it my mum's hang out place.
hehs.
anyways, we bought a lot of stuffs & it costs my mum almost 200.
hawhaw!
it was a nice day.
kikyn went out with zhafir.
grrr.

030107;
--------
sch reopens today!
hehs.
i was super fucking excited lor.
i was in a new class.
4A1.
there were some retainees from last year's N's students.
they're the same age as me.
so far, there's not really a problem abt sch.
everything seems to be fine.
the sec ones this year looks so nerdy.
hahaha.
anws, im aiming for a 5 or a 3 for N's.
i hope i can make it.
hehs.
wish me luck guys.

tt's all for now.
will update again soon.
((:
take care all.
& for those who are schling tmr, have a nice day in sch!

2006-12-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

hey babies.
i'm going to JB already.
will not be updating until tuesday or so..
so, miss me alrightey?
meanwhile, keep on tagging me.
will reply very very soon.
so long..

HAPPY NEW YEAR & SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA.

fuck you for making me cry.

2006-12-30T07:19:00.000+08:00

my confessions.

i have never thought that this break-up would have a big effect on me.
i am always the one who is wrong.
for now, im wrong in loving you still when you've already moved on.
im foolish.
foolish enough just to think that you're still mine when we're actually history.
im still hurt & wounded by ur decision.
a year meant a lot to me.
for the past month, memories of you & me together kept flashing back like nightmares.
how i wish i didn't met you.
how i wish we were total strangers.
it's painful to swallow.
i've never felt this way before.
this is way too painful.
why is this happening to me?
why are you fading away when you said you'd be there for me even if we broke up?
why did you break your promise?!
lies.
lies.
lies.
fuck them.
now, i can't live my days peacefully.
i worry.
worry about how my life will be like in the future.
i thought i'd be fine with you by side as a friend.
but you left me.
you left me as a lover & you left me when im all alone.
you're sucha liar.
why did you have to make those promises when you can't keep them?
what was all the hugs & kisses for even when we broke a few days after?
were you sweet-talking me?!
why must this happen?!
i didn't ask for much.
i just wanted you to stay by my side as my friend.
i just needed you.
even my bestfriend's gone now.
for the past month, i've been keeping my sadness to myself.
never revealing a single bit.
i kept the truth from everybody.
but now, i just realised how foolish my decision was.
fuck love.
fuck heartbreaks.
i loved you then.
i still love you now.
come back.
even if it kills me, i'll be waiting.
)'=

2006-12-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!
THE PICTURES.

the one year as well as khairul's bday.

the class pit.

---------------------------------
right, so im finished with the pictures.
i have some recent photos of myself but i guess i'll post it some other time.
i went out yesterday with kikyn & zhafir.
kikyn & me took a cab to town.
the weather was sucky.
i hate rainy days.
especially when i wanna go shopping.
it sucks.
it totally sucks.
furthermore, i was wearing slippers instead of my converse.
(i can't really wear slippers on rainy day)
still, the day was filled with fun & laughter eventhough it was only the three of us.
((:
our meeting place was at the heeren shops.
the three of us arrived all at the same time.
neither had to wait for either.
& so, the moment we arrived, we headed for the everlast store as i wanted to buy my sch shoe.
i thought everlast's shoes costs something like nike or converse but it was hell, way more cheaper than that.
who would've known..
hehs.
& did i tell you that i immediately fell in love the moment i saw the shoe?
it wasn't as fantastic but it's kinda nice..
so, without hesitation i immediately bought it.
after everlast, we went to fourskin & i bought some badges.
just for fun.
thought of like putting it on my sch uniform.
haah.
so, when we stepped out of heeren..
i was cursing & swearing cos i didnt bring any umbrella or the sweater with a hoodie.
the two kept laughing at me cause they had their hoodies on.
haha.
bloody hell.
we went to taka..
ate at pepper lunch.
& had fun.
i kept disturbing zhafir.
after all the eating & laughing, we went to smoke outside wisma & that's when i saw my old school mate, lydiana.
wth.
she has grown.
too much that she looked so different.
i didn't know what was up with her hair & her eyebrows.
haha.
am not critising though.
just pointing out, that's all.
hohoho.
oh yea, back to the story.
we went to surf babes to survey some sch bags for my syster.
she wanted to buy a ripcurl bag but it was kinda small & it costs her 50 bucks..
so, she really had to think twice.
we went to topshop, as well as forever 21.
everywhere was crowded with people.
as to avoid from being shoved here & there, we headed for the popular bookstore to get our books.
i only got like 3/4 of my list & the rest, i'll get it from sch.
oh btw, i noticed that i tire easily these days.
tts what happened after i bought my books.
i went to forum first to buy an esprit shirt & after which, i went straight home while kikyn & zhafir hang out together.
((:
tts all for ytd.
ohh ohh..
i really pity those countries who were caught with the drought.
i know it's kinda sad.
school's re-opening soon & yet, they're stuck with such disasters.
i pray & hope that things will get better for them tho.
it's not nice to celebrate the new year with your house drowned by the droughts isn't it?
=hmmm, if you guys have been having trouble with your internet connections, it's all due to the taiwan earthquakes.
a lot of cables were badly damaged, causing a whole lot of great impact to countries around the world.
haiss.
these days, too many terrible things has occured.
& the people here in singapore are just enjoying too much.
maybe we should spare some thought for those in need?
hehs.

anws, after reading effah's entry..
i feel like, i too wanna recap about 2006.
so let's see..

school life;
i hated my class at first. but after some time, the people whom i thought were ruthless, idiotic & stupid were the ones who were actually fun. widya & me had a real roller coaster ride with one of our retainee friend; tini. at times, we'll be friends & at times, we'll quarell like nobody's business. my friends really were something & i'll never forget them. not being in the same class anymore is sucha shame. but nonetheless, i'll try harder & overcome those smarties in that class. ;)

relationship;
i was with khairul for the whole year. it was a fun one. i think, basically for 2006, my life just revolves around him. all the laughters & crys i'll never forget.. although we're not together anymore, his memories remains & he'll still be loved. <3333

family;
a whole lot of roller coaster ride for this one too. but ohwell, no matter what happens; mum, dad, kikyn.. i'll still love you guys. <3333

internet;
this internet life is so amazing, just like what effah said in her blog.. i've been blogging for almost 2 years plus already. i've met many people online.. interesting & irritating ones.. many taught me a lot of lessons in life after talking to them. without this internet connection, i wouldn't have known all you blogmates, myspacers & all that.. hehs. ((:

ohwell..
i guess that's it...
have a nice day all!

2006-12-29T07:14:00.000+08:00

IM BACK ON TRACK FOR MYSPACE.
WWW.MYSPACE.COM/PHASHIONSTARR
CHECK IT OUT & ADD ME UP!!!
(((((((((:

2006-12-28T03:36:00.000+08:00

finally!
my pay's here.
((((((((((:
right after the payment was received, i straight away went to search for some stuff .
you could call it a small shopping.
hehs.
i went to buy my brown clr fred perry bag, paul frank red glittery pencil case, some earrings, a white stretchable belt, a red watch, some stamps & stickers for school, bodyshop's blue eyedefiner, a super volume mascara as well as an all in one face base.
hawhaw.
not much things though.
when i went to isetan.. it was like damn crowded. i guess it's due to the sale & all that.
i browsed through the stationery section but nothing really interests me except for the sticker & stamp.
maybe it was because i've already bought the stationeries ytd.
i'll be searching for more tmr.
(i have an obsession for stationaries.)
& i might be buying my sch books as well.
i still havent decided yet on the shoe i want to buy.
anws, i think i shall be free from my busy-ness anytime soon so i'll post the pictures soon.
meanwhile, for now, i need a rest & i need some bleach & naruto.
hehs.
so, alrightey.
bye.

it wasn't about me, not wanting to kiss you.
its just that i still love him.
& to let my lips linger on somebody else's other than his..
i don't think it's right.
im sorry.

2006-12-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

hey ya'll.
im beat.
totally beat.
i went back home yesterday at 3 am after much eating & going places with the family.
it was tiring.
tomorrow's christmas.
wow.
it's gotta be hectic tmr in orchard road.
the road's gonna be closed.
& im gonna end work at 6.
after which, we're gonna have some sort of christmas dinner at a fine dining restaurant with the daddy&mummy's friend.
their food is super superb!
i love their dessert.
especially the creme brulee.
it's like totally heaven yaw.
hawhaw.
anws, ytd, i accompanied erinne&kikyn to far east.
we surveyed some stuffs.
im gonna buy that brown fred perry bag & also the thick framed glasses.
it's super cute & super retro!
hohohoho.
i love it.
oh yea, ytd, when i was on my way to work, i saw pocky docky;hajar.
she's prettae man.
today's kinda boring.
i don't know what to do.
& actually, i dunno what to blog.
i think i've been blogging on the same thing over & over again.
wtf.
anws, here are my new year resolutions;

01 . cut down the fags. save the money on something else.
02 . slim down you fat ass. jog/swim 5 times a week.
03 . be attentive in class & achieve more & make sure the teachers notice my change.
04 . avoid being caught smoking by your parents eventhough they already gave up on your habit.
05 . avoid being caught for short skirts in sch. it's stupid.
tt's all!
yeay!
"-.-
i think i wanna go far east again.
im super bored.

yesterday didn't seem easy.
tears rolled like an endless river.
why can't this feeling fade away?
it's killing me.

& whenever i think of you, i wonder if you think of me as well.
i miss you like crazy.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!
& HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-12-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

I MISS KHAIRUL!!
I MISS MIZGREEN!
I MISS JAZA!
I MISS NANI!
I MISS THE INDIE BOYS!
I MISS WIDYA & MY GRRLS!!
I MISS HAFIZ & KHAIRUL (MY CLASS)!

haiyoo.
meet up soon guys.

im always looking forward to this date bt wts up with today ..
it doesnt feel special.
it feels painful.

2006-12-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

babes, dudes & whoever who is reading my blog..
im really sorry for the lack of updates & pictures.
i am too busy to even face the computer.
even when i get home after a shower, i would just head to bed straight.
work has been real hectic.
my mum & me were the only ones in the shop & we had to really serve each customer well & keep em satisfied.
it's really tiring due to the sale increase.
(it has increased drastically over the past year)
& just now, we managed to hit a thousand again.
well, my workplace was like some sort of disaster when it was time to go home.
the chocolates weren't in place & everything will be disappearing soon enough.
but well, we still have our daily shipment this friday.
well, i hope we can handle it.
if not, i hope to swap with my auntie.
i mean, who knows if i can sit around with my friend, yana, azfar & the trolley boys again?
hehs.
anws, to my dearest gf, widya.
im so sorry babe for not posting up the pics.
im really really sorry okay.
it's not that i wanna do it on purpose but im too busy.
even now, im forcing myself to blog.
hehs.
((:
everyday, when i read wanie's blog, i'll get happy.
happy that she updates & i will be sad if she doesn't.
im serious.
& whenever i think of this, i think of my fellow blogmate as well.
like, wth will they say if i don't update.
i was, well, once a blog-aholic.
im addicted to creating new skins & all those shits.
but now, im like..
baaahhh!
haha.
guess im much more lazier right now.
maybe soon enough, i'll only blog if like there's an outing, pictures or maybe whenever i feel like sharing something with you guys.
i won't really like practically update everyday soon.
hehs.
oh yeaa, i need opinions abt W850i & N5300.
pls tell me which one is better.
i used to have the pics but i guess i've deleted it & well, im too lazy to even upload the pics.
so, please tell me abt it yeaa.
i mean, ur opinions.
& yes, do i buy the fred perry bag or the revoltage bag?
my gawd.
so many decisions & so little time.
((:
so, i'll be going to sleep for nw.
keep on tagging.
i'll try & reply to them when i have time alrightey?
take care ya'll!

*HUGS&KISSES,
attica.

p.s; to friends . i'll be going to m'sia on hari raya haji for a few days. okay? just leave me smses if you need to.

baby come back to me.. i should have never set you free..

2006-12-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

hey all.
im really really sry for nt posting pics i've promised to.
haiyoo.
i've been real busy with stuffs.
i mean, work.
like seriously busy.
everyday work work work.
& i cant wait for pay day.
i can't wait to get my hands on that fred perry bag & tt vans/lacoste shoe.
plus all the stationerys.
hwaaahwaaaa.
i loike!!!
& anws, im gonna get my hands on the N5300.
i hate nokia laa actually but wells, its okay.
the phone looks kinda coolness.
hehs.
& deennnnn, i think i will shop shop shop.
weeeee!
im gonna be the happiest person on earth.
but hais, i have no one to accompany me to shop.
i used to have a bf but nw, everything's gone.
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
next week was SUPPOSED TO BE our 1yr&1mth.
but haiyoookk.
wtv wtv wtv. im sick & tired already.
im still heartbroken.
im still sad.
sad that he doesnt seem to giv a fuck abt it.
))'=
aahh well, i'll update again laa okay.
okaye bye.

2006-12-07T00:28:00.000+08:00

hey all.
back.
finally, my syster found the modem that my dad's been hiding for a long time.
it sucks man having to update from work.
eyaaargh.
anws, i can't wait for tmr.
my class's having a bbq pit.
i so miss my classmates!
i mean, my sooon to be ex-classmates.
im gonna miss you guys like hell after tmr.
hehs.
i love you guys okay.
so don't forget me!!!!
hahaha.
okay, life's been a-okay for me.
after that break-up..
i been kinda sad.
like super sad.
it's kinda hard to move on.
altho khai's not so caring of a bf,
he's sort of the best shud say.
& now tt he's gone, things are lil'
bit diff.
but well, i still talk to him at night like i do before.
altho it hurts, i enjoyed it most of the time.
((:
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.
im tired maaan.
im seriously fucking tired of all the work.
haisss.
just now, i was like standing my ass off, packing all the chocolates.
haiyoo.
okay laa..
gotta pack my things for tmr.
im excited laa seyy.
hahaha.
okay toodles all.
take care & have a good day tmr!

i never thought i'd be the one to say, please don't leave me alone..

2006-12-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

IM NO LONGER ATTACHED.
we've decided to break up.
it's neither one's idea.
it's just that we need time & all.
especially him.
i still love him like before.

don't ask why.
hey dried rose..
you said you're just giving me advices.
im not that conservative somehow to stop my own bf from drinking & all that.
but well, im not in-charge already.
he's ruling his own life now.
free & just very free, without any grrl to think about.
tt's all i gotta say.
& oh, one more thing i gotta tell you.
what do you think?
if he himself doesnt listen to his mom, what more, his gf?
think about it.

anws, a whole truckload of thanks to JAZA & NANI.
you babes rock & i love you to the fcking core.
plus a whole lot of thanks to faliq, sani, yan & dd.
tks fr sending those touching msgs.
& to khairul, my dearest ex bf,
tks for everything.
you were there.
you stood by me.
i appreciate all your deeds towards me.
i still hope we can be back together.
but let's just let fate tell the story.
im fcking devasted.
i cry almost everyday upon hearing his voice.
moving on takes quite some time.
unfortunately...
haiss.

take care all.
will post more updates soon.
((:

2006-12-02T13:37:00.000+08:00

IM SRY PEOPLE.
IM NOT IN MY MOOD.
JUST KEEP UR BAD COMMENTS TO URSELF
OR RISK BEING A VICTIM OF MY VERBAL DIAHORREA.
SO, JUST ZIP!ZIP!ZIP!ZIP!ZIP!
will update if i get home todaay.
-.-"
sry DRIED ROSE.
sry SUM1.
sry BF.
sry EVERYONE.

2006-12-01T11:08:00.000+08:00

hello all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, i knw you guys miss me.
well, to tell you the truth..
I MISS YOU GUYS TOOS!
heheh.
((:
won't be able to update or post pictures laa these few days.
am sleeping over my granny's crib.
home is B tothe O tothe R tothe I tothe N tothe G.
BORING.
yeaaah.
what to do.
bf is like &%#&^%(#(&.
at times he'll be okay & at times he'll be like not ookay.
i dun understand him at all.
wtf.
& yes bf, i have not only found a 2nd bf.
i have found another 10 other potential ones but i still love YOU.
thank you. enuff said.
my work commences TODAY!
ahaaa.
this is where everything will get dull.
but well, i can't wait to work at suntec tmr!
yea yea yea.
can meet old friends!
hehs.
i will update again okay people.
dun miss me too much .
i will now reply those crappy tags at my tagboard.
CB laa that other guy.
okay bye all!
((:
<333333

2006-11-27T04:25:00.000+08:00

wdaits officially MONDAY.
ohh soo whatever.
monday blues..
ughhh.
but nonetheless,
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO ATIKA (POLLY) & HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO EX, YAN.
((:
YES YES, MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE & MAY YOU HAVE A GOOD LIFE& HEALTH.

okay okay,
so just now, i mean, ytd, i slept at 11 & woke up at 7.
ahaaa.
i had a nice time sleeping.
but when i woke up, my parents asked me to get ready.
we went out at 9.
went to pasir panjang to eat.
eat dog conch (it's a seafood but i dunno why it's spelt/pronounced like that. haaah!), siput (dunno what the hell it's called in english.), satay & some ice kacang.
was full laa aft that.
& we went to mustafa, my mum's favourite place.
ughhh. '-.-
still, i enjoyed it.
bought loreal's hair moisturiser, eye shadow & nail polish.
syster bought eye shadow.
& dad & mom bought four vcds.
two hindi & two indonesian.
aft which, we went to mc's drivethru.
bought a chicken fold-over for myself & a vanilla milkshake.
tts why im getting faaaaat!
i dunno why for the first time, i finished my milkshake.
it's surprising.
& so, we went home to watch the two indonesian vcds.
it's like scary.
smth abt karma.
i learnt some lesson tho.
((:
okay so, tts all.
im gonna resume putting on nail polish.
yeaaap.
im friggin bored.
haaah.

you said you'd call.
but you never did.
i'll try & believe even if it's not true.
we're falling apart but i'll still love you.
<333.
stop lying.
i hate it.

2006-11-26T10:54:00.000+08:00

ITS A BEAUTAAAYFOOOL SUNDAY!
& i can't believe it is sunday.
haaaaaaah.
ohwells, im heading to bed.
havent slept the whole daaay.
((:

2006-11-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY BF TO THE FCUKING CORE.
HE DOESNT CARE ANYMORE.
& I WANNA FIND A 2ND BF.
fucker fucker.
die jerk! die!

2006-11-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
okay fug.
i have a swollen eye.
& it's fugging painful laaa seeyy.
how now?
& i can't use eyeliner at the moment.
ewww.
been resting & smoking fags at home.
im rotting maan.
CB.
haiss.
i have to bathe every now & then to get rid of the heat.
well, that's what my dad said.
my bf's still outside.
uhh, i think he's on the way home.
irritating seeeyyy.
im like so lonely todaaay.
wht the ever laa.
im full of craps today.
i only went out to buy ciggs & meet mummy to eat at the next blk.
& all i did at home was eating, smoking & editting pics.
tts all!
hw boring..
& yeaa..
nani.. mebbe bsk laa ehh aku email kau the pics.
thankyou!
so, so, so ,so, so,
THATSALL LAA!
i must bathe.
any tips to make this swollen eye disappear?
painful laa seyy .
pity me?
pretty pleaaase?
eww. i sound very annoying.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

2006-11-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

hello everybody.
heee.
i wanna thank you guys for the wishes.
i really appreciate it.
wells, yesterday was fine.
went to suntec city's sky garden to celebrate his & my day.
((:
i bought him a swensens cake.
the cookies & cream one.
very nice!
hahaha.
i loike laa seyy!
the surprise that we planned didnt work out well tho.
but we still had fun.
the bf was happy as ever.
we took some pictures but i can't post it right now cause it's like very troublesome for me to go & resize & edit.
so, later laa.
ohh yea, the bf went for a drink at a bar with his friends.
& he reported to me earlier today that he was drunk like fug yesterday.
& today, he looked like a drug addict.
i love yesterday cause got nani.
hahaha.
& my sys tagged along after a while.
everything was nice yesterday.
i hope my relationship will continue till forever!
hahaha.
so maybe, i'll post pics tmr.
sorry about the little updates.
should have told you guys in detail but i hate this fucking keyboard & i feel like just slamming it.
hais.
ohwells, take care all!
((;
bf; hope you enjoyed ur bday yesterday. i was happy to see your face again.
<333333333

2006-11-23T02:25:00.000+08:00

finally.
*gasps.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BF & HAPPY ONE YEAR TO US.

dearest bf,
i appreciate the times we used to spend together.
from days, weeks, months..
& now, it's a year.
i can't believe it still. it's like time flied so fast.
i still can remember how shy you were on the day we first met, till now that you're not shy at all.
((:
the kisses, the hugs.
whatever it is, im still in love with you.
let's hope this relationship go smoothly as we want it.
i love you baby.
& i'll always will.
i hope you'll enjoy this day.
<3333

hello people of all sizes.
im at home currently.
& feeling sleepy.
im kinda worked out already.
tks all for the comments on the new skin.
i appreciate it.
once again, if you're interested in those threads..
email at;myheart.bleedsforyou@hotmail.com
click on the pictures cause the info's there.
dun add me on msn cause i rarely sign in.
seriously.
ohwells, i got to go.
sleeep is the best medicine for exhaustion.
hehs.
okaey people.
good night.

i love you boyfriend.
<3333333

2006-11-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

hello people!
i have a newwwwww skin laaaaa seyyy!
hahahha.
im loving it.
okaey, so first.
im selling my stuffs.
check it out.
it's cheap.
hell cheap.
email me at myheart.bleedsforyou@hotmail.com
tell me the item no. & leave your contact no.
i'll get to you a.s.a.p.
btw, please click to enlarge.
thank you.
ITEM 01;

ITEM 02;

ITEM 03;

ITEM 04;

ITEM 05;

ITEM 06;

ITEM 07;

ITEM 08;

ITEM 09;

there's more to come.
so hurry!
((:

2006-11-16T07:31:00.000+08:00

hello guys.
so, im back for more stupid & boring updates about no one other than myself.
life is such a bore & i wonder why im saying that im busy.
wells, to me, the term busy is used when i don't have time to spend for the computer.
yea, well..
that's me.
whenever i don't get to check my mails, myspace, friendster & blog, i'll say that im busy.
haah.
yea, it's stupid.
uhh, i guess let's move on.
where did i go these days?
other than going out with the bf last tuesday & an outing with my friends & the bf on last saturday, i'll be at my momma's workplace rotting or maybe at home, rotting & stinking.
okay, so last saturday, i had loads of fun.
like very very much.
i loved it.
& well, on sunday, went to bugis with the mom & dad to buy a new thread for myself plus a belt& mum bought a new thread as well plus chargers for the small sys & the dad.
my mum was thrilled that clothes at bugis were so friggin cheap that she said that the place was interesting.
hehs.
& well, on monday?
i forgot.
tuesday?
went out with the bf.
had much fun.
watched step up.
friggin boring.
the dance steps were cool tho.
but overall, i'd only give it a 3/5.
hehs.
ohwells, i didnt go out yesterday & maybe i'll be going out today with that small kiddo.
she really wants to go out you know.
so, must entertain ajer laa kaaann.
hehs.
so people, be back for more updates.
im planning to go on hiatus.
but dunnoe laa kaan.
oh anws, to norsiah my love, tks for accompanying me thaat day.
haha.
had a nice time.
okaey people.
bye.
& take care.
I STILL LOVE KHAIRUL TO THE FUCKING CORE LIKE I USED TO!
UHH, HAPPY ADVANCED BDAY EHH. TAKOT TK UPDATE LAA DAT DAY.
I'LL MAKE SURE U'LL NEVER REGRET ABOUT MAKING ME UR FUCKING IDIOTIC GF.
I SWEAR JERK.
HEHEHE.
((:
<333333333

2006-11-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

just talked to my bf just now.
now, it's decided that i'll not find him anymore.
but instead, he'll find me.
im happy for at least, hearing his voice.
i cried just now.
but it can't be helped.
i shall not pester him anymore.
ohwells, my life has been pretty boring lately.
i've been pestered by the stalker.
another character in my life; the stalker.
his real name is suffyan.
he's the same age as me.
he's considered as my ex.
worst still, lately, he's interested in me back.
ohh godd.
another problem.
but wells, he's kinda funny.
so, when yesterday, i had a conflict with the bf, he was the one who talked to me.
he just broke up with his 2 years ex-gf.
apparently to him, it's tragic & he's very miserable.
so therefore, he calls me & pesters me to stop thinking of his gf.
how's that?
ugh.
& wells, besides that part-time entertainment, i get entertainment from naruto as well.
yea, im still watching it & currently at episode 170+.
okaey, you may say that im a lil' childish but wells, what can i say?
heh.
im not going out tomorrow maybe.
im too tired i guess.
by 1st december i'll have to start working & i can't wait eventhough it's tiring.
next week, i have an appointment.
the week after next is bf's bday cum our 1 year anni.
time really flies fast.
heh.
ohwells, i'd rather resume watching naruto.
cos after this, i'll have to do some work.
as usual.
((=

2006-11-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

hey people.
sorry for the lack of updates.
im actually not in the mood in really blog or blabber that much but well, i just need to pour out my feelings.
on monday, i went to bugis with khairul & sani & nani joined soon after.
i bought some earrings, black pants & a skulls & bones shirt from topshop.
wanted to watch 'The Covenant' but wells, the time was at 7 & i'm like to laazy to go.
over there, saw fatin, yana (dyn's gf) & faris&the gang.
on that day itself, i quarelled with the bf twice.
he almost took off the necklace & we almost broke off.
well, that day really proved that even how unsure i was about this relationship, i still love him a lot.
& now, it seems that we almost over.
he asked for the time-out again.
he didn't call me for days.
i miss him a lot.
i wish i could hug him right now.
i know it's lil' dumb.
but to let go of someone u're too fond of, it's really a pain.
i left him hundreds of missed calls yesterday.
i cried like nobody's business.
i try to forget but it's real hard.
i don't want to part but i dunnoe about his feelings.
i need someone to talk or to cheer me up but no one's there.
haiss.
i knw i irritated him a lot & i know im always wrong.
haiss.
wish thing would be like before.
i wish.
wells, i think i gtg.
i've got no mood.
dear bf, & if you're reading this, please know that i can't stop thinking about you & i really miss you.
i just hope that your 'busy-ness' isn't about grrls.
please don't break my heart.
i still love you like before & it's hard to say that you were never mine.
love,
your gf.

2006-11-04T03:15:00.000+08:00

hey people.
im back for more updates.
heh.
i really had fun for the past two days.
like totally!
haaaaaah!
so, on thursday, i went to bugis with the bf to meet up with the people.
first, the bf came to my house to sort of like fetch me.
then we took190 & then, 36 to suntec, to walk to bugis.
met up with ehfy, sani & faliq.
it was my first time meeting faliq & it was like so awkward.
haaah.
we didn't really talk.
as hanah, chelsea & adam was at bugis, we met up for a while.
then, after like 15-20 minutes, chelsea & adam wanted to go home.
it was real damn stupid cos they came al lthe way & suddenly, they wanted to go back already.
it was all because of adam though.
guess he was facing some shits, that's all.
well, after which, those guys plus me & hanah went to starbucks but well, sat separately.
i had a chat over a drink with hanah.
like finally!
i got to drink my favourite caramel frappucino.
hehs.
after much chatting & drinking, we went to the sides of bugis junction to smoke & kinda chill out.
the boys took pictures with faliq's digital camera.
at first, the bf was the photographer.
but after a while, i was the one.
heh.
& ard 9 plus, nani came to join us.
((:
it's been a while since i've seen her.
it was nice meeting you again babe!
they continued taking pics & soon after, well, i took my leave to go home.
i had to cause my dad's been bickering over the phone & it's real damn infuriating.
heh.
we made our move at 9 & reached home around 11.
oh! i saw a few people that day, ira spydey, fifi, keci[k]enet, nanachica, ila [misblurtink] & one of nanachica's friend.
*((:
was fun & i straight away took off to bed after bathing & having my late night supper.
& when i woke up the next morning, the bf called me and asked me to get ready at the last minute.
heh.
i was, of course, completely shocked!
haiyoo.
like at the last minute, he wants me to go jln raya with him.
as usual, the bf is always late when it comes to meeting up.
met with nani again.
((:
& then, proceeded to small mc at the tampines interchange.
there were like so many unknown & unfamiliar faces.
but ohwell, we just go with the flow.
the first house, was jepon's.
a friend of theirs.
it was kinda awkward & stuff so when it comes to going to the next house, we immediately took the opportunity & said that we got to catch up with the other friends.
met up with faliq, suria, jaza & hanafi at fad?'s house.
was a bit quiet back then.
but when we went to hanafi's house, things started to get fun.
his mum & grandmom was somehow very conservative.
but had much fun.
next was the bf's & after which was syazwani's hse, jaza's friend.
& nani was the second last
& finally, came my house.
haaah.
faliq kept asking about the seesha.
sorry dude.
if my mum weren't at home, i could have asked you to set it up.
& well, the day ends there.
everybody got back around 12 plus, including me.
it's because i had to send nani.
((:
so, therefore people, pics will be posted based on my mood.
if my mood's good, i will post it as soon as possible.
take care all!
<33333

2006-11-02T03:55:00.000+08:00

after a blog-telling session from my syster i just realised that every single one in this world is never perfect.
every single being is not perfect.
you may be blessed with good looks but wells, whatever the shit u're facing about ur flaw, nobody knows.
maybe god is fair afterall.
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people, it seems that now that the holidays are here, im getting more like an owl.
i can't sleep & well, i'll blog.
other than that, i'll check out prettae boys&grrls from myspace & friendster.
i do all those shits just to kill time & make me sleepy.
besides that, cleaning up the house to earn some pennies from my parents is starting to be a routine.
i usually talk to my bf till late but it seems that nowadays, we'll talk for less than 30 minutes & he'll already feel or sound sleepy.
it seems pretty unfortunate for me though.
it's just so unfortunate that i feel like we're no longer together.
i wish i could steal his time & just be comfy with him.
i don't wanna sound like im so desparate for his attention.
but, maybe all he could do is just tolerate with me.
if he can spend endless hours with his friends, why can't he spend just an hour with me.
is it so difficult?
bf, if you're reading this, please..
im leaving it to you already.
i love & miss the times we spent so lovingly when we were suppossed to be on time-out.
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it's already the 2nd of this month.
who knew that time would fly like a quick breeze?
maybe before we even knew it, it's already time for school once again.
hehs.
that's when people will drag themselves and complain&complain all over again.
on my part, i'll make sure i'll put in full determination for the years ahead.
two years is not thaaat long anyway.
well, let's just pray haard.
it's already four.
still early somehow.
my dearest lil annoying syster is going to sch later,
to find out about her elective subjects that she's gonna take, as well as her class for next year.
heh,
i just hope she doesn't get art.
hahaaa.
cos if she gets art, she'll never get her pieces done on time.
((:
ohwells, you sweethearts shall read my crap again tomorrow.
that is, if i have nice things to talk about.
have a good day ahead people.
<3333

2006-11-01T07:28:00.000+08:00

well hello there people.
im really really sorry for the lack of updates.
been quite lazy these few days.
all i do is sleep, eat, talk, technology & smoke my ass out.
im feeeling a bit long-winded toodayy.
so, bear with me.
& fucking read the fucking rant.
oh well,
i have a fucking stupid & big news to tell.
the news is..
im fucking stupid that i had to DROP DOWN from express stream to normal academic.
of course, im sad & all having to leave my lovely classmates & join some boring, non-adventurous people.
hooow saaaad.
yeaaa.
i cried laa okaey, when i got to know.
here's how the story goes;
i, the asshole asked my mum to check out my results for me in sch.
& so, being the lazy asshole i usually am, i slept ssssooooouuunnndddlyyyy in my bed.
until i received a stupid sms from T.H.E.M.U.M.
it goes like this.
"both of you turon na. kakak tak stay back."
wells, as i was really sleepy, i tried to look at it carefully & i smiled like hell!
i thought it was a msg from my mum which sounded like ohh-look-daughter!-im-so-proud-of-you.
& i eventually thought that my mum mistyped from a 'la' to a 'na'.
to rephrase it,
it's like this;
"both of you turon la. kakak tak stay back."
something like that.
so, i woked my dad & syster up, saying that i made it & my syster didn't.
but ohhwells, my dad then called my mum to find out again & that's when i fucking cried.
the 'na' was suppose to mean, NORMAL ACADEMIC.
hais..
see, i AM getting stupider.
okaye, so let's mooove on.
how's hari raya getting along?
full of crap & shits.
i hate hari raya.
seriously.
but one thing, i LOVE my costumes.
heheh.
need to see the pictures?
check it out at; www.friendster.com/beautifullie & www.myspace.com/phashionstarr
okaey?
hmmm, right now, im having a big headache thinking about the bf's bday & our one year which falls on the very same day.
i've been waiting for the day to come but now that it's near, i'm out of ideas.
haiiyaa.
maybe a delay for the presents is goood.
hell, i've so many to think about.
& now, im outta job.
shitness.
ohh.. no use blabering nonsense anymore.
hehs.
i gotta sleeep.
my eyes are all droopy already!
enjoy people.
will change the skin sooon.
just stay tuned.
cheerios!
((:

2006-10-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 11 MTHS BF!
love you & i will always will.
mwaaak mwaaak.
<333

2006-10-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

THE NEWWWWW HAAAAAIR!

2006-10-22T04:49:00.000+08:00

hey all.
im just gonna post a few updates.
- im done with buying my costumes; blue & white.
- bf has decided to wear the same color as me.
- i have insomnia currently & is unavailable to sleep at night.
- my family is finally on track & in the mood for hari raya.
- bf will start working at SATS (!!) - it's horrendous.
- & that's all.
very booorinnggggg.
ohh yeaa, lemme entertain you with some old pics.
MY PICS.
thaaank youu.
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BEEFOOOREEE.

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NNOOOOOWW.

BYYYEEE!

2006-10-18T02:17:00.000+08:00

hey all.
im back for updates.
well, well, i finally bought my costume.
nyeeeheee.
& im very happy with it.
((:
& so, im forcing my bf to find a blue one too.
regardless of whether he wants it or not.
i dun care.
heeeeheh.
ohhkay.
so, about hari raya preparations.
so far, i've made like 6 bottles of kuehhs.
how's that?
one's a melting moment & the other's a chocolate chip cookie.
i've made one for my mum's friend as well.
hehhs.
i've not been in sch for two days straight & i dun feel like coming for
a wednesday lesson.
things are getting boring.
very very boring.
haaaaaaaaaah.
im on holiday mood already.
i sleep very late every day & i wake up in the evening.
plus, the festive seasons are herrreeee.
so, forget about school!
it sucks.
-.-'
heeeheee.
well, im not the only one who is dooing it after all.
i think some of my classmates are dooing it toos.
ohhwells,
the bf has finally cut his haaair tooo!
im surprised laaa.
he cut it at jean yip.
still, i have to see the results.
heehs.
i wanna meet him tomoro laaa.
& see the newww him.
hoohoo.
ehhh okaey laa.
im blabering nonsense siaa.
take care all.
i have to watch naruto again!
currently; episode 82.
((:

2006-10-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

hello all.
im currently watching naruto.
yesterday, i watched it untill 6 & now, im continuing.
the story just keeps getting better.
((:
so, how have you guys been?
i've been miserable lately but it all ended yesterday.
i am finally talking to my dad.
it's been a week since i last talked to him.
so, yup, we're starting anew.
im fasting today & i think my family's gonna break-fast outside.
well, i hope so.
i wanna buy my kebaya as well.
im the only one in the family who hasn't bought it yet.
same goes for the bf.
we've decided on the color but we're just afraid that we won't match
each other's shade.
i mean, the costume itself.
we're afraid that we're gonna get different shades of light blue.
that's gonna be troublesome you know.
ughh.
& ohh, the shoes & the bags.
i have yet to get them.
im planning to buy those strappy heels.
& bags from topshop.
maybe i'll just follow my bf to shop next week so that i can survey
on those bags & shoes.
hari raya is soon.
very, very, soon.
ohh goodness.
& guess what?
i haven't accomplished the goal of making kuehs!
nyaahaaa.
but i think, i'll do it soon.
since the exams are over.
next monday & sunday, i'll have to work for about five hours or so.
well, at least, i can get some money.
heehee.
i miss the suntec people.
i really do.
the royce boys, the trolley boys, the angie the choice grrls,
bravissimo boys & grrls, baking boys aunty & some of the carrefour people.
i wonder hows the place like.
the last time i went to suntec was a few weeks ago.
& that was with my baby to obtain my cheque.
maybe next sunday & monday's gonna be the last time i'll be working there.
well, i dunnoe.
i'll miss them.
a lot.
((:
ohhwells, time to resume to my naruto.
im at episode 50 + already.
heehee.
okaey all.
take care!
<33333

2006-10-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

I LOVE NARUTO & SAMURAI CHAMPLOO!
nyaahaaa.
their graphics & story is so fucking cool!
hahahaha.
& so, im in love with them right now.
& since my exams will be over tmr, i'll be watching them as long as i want.
nyaahaahaa!

tmr is my chemisty paper.
the LAST paper.
ooohh! this is oh-so-fun!
after which, i need not worry.
no more mugging like hell!
all i need to do is just have fun for the next two or three months.
hoohoo.
& now, i wanna resume to my naruto.
sorry for the short update but at least u get to know what im up to isn't it.
even if you don't care.
heeee.
((:

2006-10-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

i can't stand being the victim of other's ego.
i want to put an end to all this.
it's killing me inside.
please stiop torturing me.
doesnt mean that when i keep obliging, you can step on my head.
i've lived in fear for the last 16 years.
i kept quiet & pretended it was all alright when it's not.
im tired.
im sick.
i won't hesitate to hurt you now.
im sorry.
even if you are an elder, but im a teenager who has feelings.
just like you.
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hey all.
how have you guys been?
i've not been fine.
those words up there are for some people.
anyways, i finally got to watch this movie.

a very touching story.
i cried.
i fucking cried when i watched the movie.
it's about cherishing the ones around you.
well, i dun wish to elaborate further cos i want you guys to
simply buy the VCD or DVD!
it's nice ONLY if you watch it with full concentration.
before watching, prepare chips&drinks (if you're not fasting) & some tissue papers.
really touched my heart mann!

ohh kaey.
so, im done with my maths papers & POA.
they're fucking irritating.
i kept on drawing on the papers provided.
chelsea was the first to sleep during the POA paper.
hahahaa.
& ohh, did i tell you that the teacher caught me red-handed drawing when the paper just started.
heh.
i was not in the freaking mood.
anws, im prepared to drop to NA.
haiss.
i'll just have to face it laa.
im damn blardy lazy & idiotic.
what to do.
hmm, okaey laaa.
i got nothing to say.
the thought of studying really bores me.
i need to call my baby!
((;
bbye all.

2006-10-08T02:14:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL.
it's a new layout!
yes, it's kinda plain.
i've run out of ideas.
i'll try & find new inspiration.
ohh btw, the haze is pretty bad ain't it?
haiss.
it's PSI;140 right now.
bad, totally.
but still, it won't stop me from late night/early morning joggings.
haha.
things have been fine lately.
except for the exams of course.
why is it that schools must have exams?
why isn't it project based.
im tired okaey.
i will finally buy my costume on the 15th..
as what my mum told me.
i dun really have the mood to hari raya-ing.
it's totally boring.
visit & visit till my legs sore with those heels.
& sweat with the very idiotic material costumes.
the radio has been bickering with hari raya songs.
haiss.
i just dun have the mood this year.
seriously.
i dunnoe why laa.
anws, it's such a boring week.
i may be going to vivo city with my parents later this afternoon.
the latest & newest latest attraction at harbourfront.
one of the biggest shopping centre.
also, they have the biggest cinema.
it's really interesting cos food will be served to you when you're watching movie.
& also, they have wine bars for the legal aged people.
it sounds cool but i must check it out to know more.
i dunnoe where i'll be break-fasting this evening.
i hope we'll not be out for too long cos i have an exam the next day.
i hate exams. totally.
i wish i could just skip POA.
wells, i dun wish to repeat or to drop to NORMAL ACADEMIC.
it's not really a big problem to me though.
but it is to my mum.
haiss.
let's cut it.
i feel sick whenever i think of it.
so, what's new in my life.
currently, i have a stupid stalker, stalking me.
it's definitely not my bf.
it's a stranger who got my number from an asshole.
i won't forgive you asshole.
haiss.
i feel like blocking his number but the procedure is just too tedious or
maybe, too troublesome.
he's been wanting to meet me & will send me a few msgs every single day, asking what am i doing.
ughh.
i really dun understand why some people are just so typical.
i hate these west side boys.
so mat-repish!
idiots.
luckily, the asshole's gf was nice enough to apologise on his behalf.
if not, i would feel like giving him a thousand vulgar texts.
but still, the stalker just won't stop stalking me.
for goodness sake, i have a boyfriend!
ughhh!
the nerve!
ahh, btw, i just read nanavodka's blog.
i think i agree with her.
people who tell stories about them right after they woke up until they doze off just bores me as well.
i've been blogging for two, coming to three years already.
& if that's about all that you're gonna blog about..
it's just boring.
the blogging world now not only requires your own self reflection, it also requires opinions & some other things, related to the real world.
but maybe, they're just begginners who blog for the sake of it or for the trend.
hahaa.
whatever.
today's the first time i watched CAMP JIM.
hahaha.
at first, i thought it was lame.
but afterall, it was a good show.
it shows that patience & perseverance pays.
heh.
i think that's all.
& ohh ohh ohh, i can't wait to get the heart movie from hanah.
a lot of people said it's very very sad.
& hanah cried.
hoho.
chill bestfriend.
you're gonna get over it soon yea?
heeeks.
okaey all.
it's getting late.
way too late.
tc yeaa.
update soon.
((:

2006-10-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

hey all.
first & foremost, please ignore the previous post.
i typed it out of anger.
let's cut it out.
well, let's see..
my week's been GREAT!
& i love my bf so very much.
he's been spending time with me.
yesterday, he accompanied me the whole day at my momma's workplace since i had to take over my mom's job as she's sick.
it was fun.
REAL fun.
hahaa.
my english & mother tongue paper are finally over.
the worst part is yet to come.
social studies is this friday & im trying very hard to study & study.
i totally gave up on maths.
it's useless.
i can't just study overnight can i?
....
it seems that people have been adding me in friendster.
haahaa.
tks all.
keep adding okaey!
hahaa.
uhmm, i dun knw what to type actually.
it's so boring.
my life is SO boring!
uhh-huhh.
ohwells, im going to tampines!
meet my honey love.
i <3 him a lot!
((:
bye all.

2006-10-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

i hate my family already.
seriously.
im being threatened every single day.
threatened that if i don't tidy up the house or whatsoever shits it is, they're gonna do something to me or the house.
fuck you.
i just can't stand being a 'maid' anymore.
it's infuriating & i feel like running away.
it's really unfair when you are the one who's always been called countless times just for them to ask you to fetch one single simple thing that is a few steps away from them.
i think everybody should play a part in the family.
if you created the mess, just tidy it up, as simple as that!
why create such a big scene from everything & just shoot at me?
& if you think that you like one fragile person who can't even lift up a single thing, you might as well die.
i can't take it anymore.
it's like, i've been going through this for years & i've been keeping quiet.
i just can't stand this idotic family anymore.
always pampering the wrong person who always contributes to the mess rather than help.
i feel that my parents are unfair.
all they can say is, "it's not easy being a parent."
so?
it's easy if you know how to be stern at your own child.
i think, even i wasn't trained like that.
at this age, i can at least clean up my mess, cook a lil' bit here & there & at least not be so rude to my parents.
goddamnit!
it's not as if you're a genius or you've risked your life for the family or the world for that matter.
please bloody understand that you're not a small kid now.
you're fucking big already.
& mom & dad, you're just a fool to just pamper her.
it's unfair to me.
& dad, stop acting like as if i killed someone & my punishment is to be a slave for you for the rest of my life.
i'm not a robot & im not a maid.
what for tidy up a fucking house which will be messed up after a few days just by TWO bloody people.
what?
are you guys handicapped or smth?!
fuck laa.
get a life!
please!
i can't stand each & everyone of your attitude already!

2006-09-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

hey people.
how have you guys been doing?
sorry for the lack of updates.
blogging has no space in my schedule nowadays.
haaahaa.
ohh btw, i've re-opened a new friendster a/c.
its ; http://www.friendster.com/beautifullie
so, feel free to add me.
& to those unknown people who have added me, TALK TO ME for goodness sake.
im not the sort who would have people adding me for the sake of adding.
im currently browsing friendster & myspace at a time.
*multi-tasking that is.
im going balmoral plaza with my elder syster later.
heading waffle town.
its on my syster.
heeee.
we're gonna break-fast there.
time flies fast yeaa..
it's already like the 6th day of fasting, going to 7.
that's already close to a week.
three more weeks to go i guess.
& it's hari raya!
actually, i dread hari raya.
can we skip the parent talks, the fattening goodies & meals & the long journeys?
i just want the money & the nice shoes & threads.
haahaa.
i just feel that my efforts of fasting will go down the drain once it's hari raya.
just imagine..
the gaseous drinks, the goodies which are full of butter or margarine, the very oily dishes; rendang etc..
just think of the calories u'll gain.
omg.
i just wanna skip skip skip!
haiss.
well, i just hope i can control when the time comes.
im going to buy my costumes next week i guess.
the main costume will be blue cos me&bf will be wearing the same.
heeeee.
& the other colour..
i still haven't decide.
ugghh.
whatever.
next on my events list is my EXAMS!
it's due next week.
for next week alone,
it's mother tongue, english, social studies & maths paper 1.
what a drag!
im trying to memorise my physics facts right now.
trying very very hard.
haiyoo.
ohwells, its four plus already.
i have to get myself ready.
i still havent bathe.
how's that?
nyaahaa.
ohh people, just take care okaey.
happy fasting & stay healthy!
heeks.
<3333.

2006-09-28T14:04:00.000+08:00

hey all!
uhmm, i got back pretty early today. as a matter of fact, i actually skipped classes & just gambled to go home. im already very thirsty so what for stay in the hot weather for so loong? i'd rather sit & sleep at home. right now, im chatting with MiZGREEN. heeeks.

well, well, well.. yesterday.. i met my honey love! haahaa. he came my house laa. & guess what.. i skipped school yesterday without my parent's consent or knowledge. okaey, so that was my second time. heeheee. didnt expect myself not to go to school laa.. but haiss.. after reaching the first floor, i changed my mind about going school and immediately called my sleeping bf & told him im going to the polyclinic. after collecting my MC at the polyclinic.. i met my bf 2 hrs after. so longg.. haiss. b! u're always so damn slooow.

& den, we chilled at my hse.. at around 6, we went to CWP. i mean, i sent him till there & i met my syster after that.. we break-fasted at banquet & reached home at 10.. that's all! nyaahaa. okaey, so i guess.. im alredy sleepy. so bye all!

2006-09-25T19:01:00.000+08:00

hey all.
just woke up from sleep.
so..
happy break-fasting ya'll.
im hungry.
i havent ate a single thing from the time i woke up.
yeaa.. & im NOT fasting.
uhh-huuhhs.
sch was great just now.
laughed a lot.
but a few bitches screw it up along the way.
& her name is sandoshini form 3a3.
so how? you diss me & this is what you get..
unwanted publicity.
one day, i'll even snap your filthy picture & put it here.
okaey?
plus plus plus.. taaadaaa! i skipped structured remedial.
too sleepy.
ahh, the lack of sleep AGAIN!
whatever.
my sleeping hours have not been fixed.
& EOY is next week.
im scared that if i really study hard, on the actual paper itself..
i'll finally fall asleep after half-an-hour.
that's my weakness.
& i dunnoe hw else to overcome it.
haiss.
im so bored.
bf's online & i dun dare to say 'hi' or whatever of that sort.
he told me it was a time-out but he ended up calling me two days straight.
& on each day, it's 3 to 4 times per day.
how's that? is it still called a time-out?
well its all up to him then.
but i feel that when we're having this time-out,
he seem more loving, caring & sweet!
haahaa.
how i wished those words could last forever.
dream on! *gasps!
ohwells, got to go..
wanna bathe & buy ciggs.
bye all.
*&ihope hady's gonna win tonight! ((:

2006-09-24T04:23:00.000+08:00

hey all.
happy fasting.
my mum & systers are having their pre-dawn meal right now.
my dad's not.
he's outside..
probably working.. which is rather sad.
& i pity him a lot.
he must be real tired.
ohh, that old man..
ahh whatever.
anehoos, im rather happy.
not so.
but quite.
he called me just now & he told me that he misses me & he loves me.
well is that a good sign?
haaah.
& he was loving too.
he said that he felt bad.
which im somehow glad he did.
but i dunnoe.
i kept crying the whole day.
how i wish i can hug & kiss him like i used to.
its been a while since i've met him.
haiss.
he has a session with his band again later today.
as long as he's happy then, i'm happy.
no one understands the ways he used to love me.
only i do as a matter of fact.
people thought that he don't love me no more but, deep
inside his heart, im confident that he still loves me.
ohh. im so contradicting.
best said, dilemma.
just talked to a jerk called faryzal just now.
haaaa.
he really entertain me with his stupid talks.
ughh. whatever. he says that he's changed but i see none.
hmmmm..
it's already 4.30 in the morning.
i haven't had any sleep.
been reading the devil wears prada novel.
& i guess i won't be sleeping until my hotcakes are here.
whatever people.
happy fasting all once again.
and duhh, GOOD MORN!
((;

2006-09-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

im utterly sad.
i just can't explain or describe it.
it's about my bf.
he asked for a timeout.
a timeout.
& he asked it on our 10 mths itself.
im just scared.
& will always be.
what if he returns & tell me that he no longer wants to continue this relationship.
he says that he wanna concentrate on his band first.
he feels bad that he cant pick up everytime i called.
khairul, why are you just doing this to me?
i just hope that everything would be like normal.
im sad.
i can't concentrate on anything else & i don't have the appetite.
he's having fun & im here suffering.
he says he'll call once he's not busy.
is he ever gonna do so?
will he ever call & say i love you to me once again.
im scared of losing him.
it's been 10 mths officially.
i don't want him running back to me & say..
'im sorry, i don't think we can continue.
i have a new grrl now.
im really sorry. '
it's gonna be real tragic.
i don't wanna suffer from another heartbreak all over again.
haiss.
let's just pray it'll not happen.
i still love you & i still miss you.
please come back to me.
i've had sleepless nights.. over & over again.
let's restart all over again.
))'=

2006-09-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL.
it seems that i've not been updating properly.
im still sad by the fact that my wallet's lost.
im utterly sad.
very fucking sad.
that wallet contains my IC, ezlink, two ATM cards (mum&mine), my appointment cards.
haisss.
i've made a police report tho.
but still, im worried.
it'll cost over $200 to redo all.
luckily, i told my bf abt it & he said he wants to pay half or so for the IC & im so relieved.
still, i just don't expect anything from him cos i know he has his things to buy.
ohh goodness.
ohhwells, as u can see..
i've changed skin again.
i will definitely change the tagboard color as well.
soon enough.
well, i've been trying to mug & its been hard.
frankly, im just not in the mood of studying eversince i lost my wallet.
its real tragic.
i sound serious eh?
hah. whatever.
the thing is.. im just not in the mood.
ohh, i better get going.
i'd better not be late for the studying.
((:
take care all.

2006-09-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

I LOST MY WALLET.
& IM EXTREMELY SAD.
))'=

2006-09-17T02:37:00.000+08:00

a request from dd.

1) single, taken or crushing?
obviously taken. ((:

2) are you happy with your life now?
quite, i shud say..

3)when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
im a hopeless romatic who easily falls in love & hardly falls out of it. unfortunately, i dun fall for sweet talks! ((;

4)you had your heartbroken?
yes. numerous times.

5)do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
uhh.. no.. cos i think love is all about understanding each other and no secrets shud be kept between em.. so.. you cud have sort things out rather than cheating you know..

6)would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?
depends.

7)have you talk bout marriage with another person before?
yes. definitely. but just for laughs.

8)do you want children?
yes.

9)how many?
maybe one or two will do.

10)would you consider adoption?
uhh. i dunnoe.

11)if someone like you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
tell it straight. or worst to worst, via email or sms. maybe that'll do.

12)do you enjoy getting into relationship?
that'd be a yes.

13)be honest,what is the furthest you and your ex did?
huh? ex? come on, what is this? a blast from the past or smth?

14)do you believe in love at first sight?
yes. but just in my dreams. heehee. i dun really believe it would come true.

15)are you romantic?
i've no idea. but at least, khairul is. haha.

16)do you believe you can change someone?
definitely.

17)if you could married somewhere, where will it be?
somewhere really romantic like hawaii or maldives or mauritius.

18)do you easily give in when you are fighting?
usually yes cos i dun wanna continue till it leads to a big fight and break up etc..

19)do you have feelings for someone right now?
my boyfriend.

20)have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed it up?
yes but it's not me who messed it up.. it was him. poor thing.

21)have you ever broken a heart?
many a times.

22)if one day your best friend fell in love with the boy/girl who you deeply in love with, what would you do?
must you ask the same question my bf always ask??

23)are you missing someone now?
indeed and waiting for his calls too. ((:

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five lucky people that is gonna do this thingy is;
mizgreen.
jenna.
miira.
hamizah.
& idahchix.

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alright. im done.
so lets really update.
i didnt go for remedials today.
too sleepy.
& it was hafiz who called me early in the morning to wake me up.
haha.
tks hafiz! tapi aku ngantokk gilerrr babii punyerrr. so mls laa.
widdiee also didnt go.
cool aye?
heee.
uhhm, told mummy i went to library but i went to meet bf.
for a while only laa.
& something wierd happened laa.
i suddenly felt like going home & then, i cried.
bf was like fucking clueless and scared laa.
he asked me why i cried which i dunnoe why
& he hugged me.
ohh! the hug! haahaa.
whatever laa.
anws, after like only one fucking hour of meeting, i went back.
blame it all on the feeling.
in the mrt, there were fucking irritating gay banglas who kept staring at me,
smelly stuffs, a pretty woman with her man whom i envy so much & finally,
a butch, hugging a grrl with 'his' other butch friends. *disgusting.
hmm, i dun understand why 'these' grrls can be attracted to 'them'.
* puke puke gag gag.
and after the whole trip, i went back and had my meal with my mum & elder syster under the void deck.
we were pretty much enjoying our meal when suddenly these 'yps' came & made some noise.
irritating.
& eventually, we continued with our meal &amp; went up.
& now, im blogging!
((;
okaey that's it.
bye all.
sorry with the too much '&s'.
heees.

2006-09-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

keane; crystal ball

hello all.
im back for updates.
nothing really interesting happened today.
yeap yeap.
just a boring day like any other.
well,
i think im starting to enjoy school.
hahas.
i dunnoe why laa.
people like syafiqah, chels, wid, gayathri, nasira, jon, louis..
they make my day.
they make my school day much interesting and full of noise instead of
just so quiet.
just when everything's going to end, it starts to be much more fun.
well, i dun guarantee that i'll be in the same class as them next year but i just
hope so.
i still don't know whether to continue studying in that school or just move on to
private.
haaahs.
how i just wish life was just easy as it sounds.
when i was a little kid, i thought growing up is all about the wonderful things
i would discover.
i never thought about the sour and bitter moments.
only now that it strucked me.
i have nowhere to run.
i just can't run cos the more i run, the more problems i'll face.
i used to think that i'll instantly become successful once i turn the age.
hahaa.
i guess i've just imagined too much.
hmmm, enough of it already.
bf quit his job.
im happy and at the same time, mad.
he has no time for me.
and i hate that.
it's not that i don't allow him to go out with his friends..
but it's just that he don't answer my call and i get very infuriated everytime he does it.
haiss.
im lucky that he doesn't read my blog anymore.
so i can call him a BLOODY IDIOT even without him knowing!
heeheee.
ohwells, i think i wanna have my nap for a while.
okaey bye! ((:

2006-09-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

the red jumpsuit apparatus; atrophy.

hey hey all!
heeeks.
first and foremost, i'll have to say sorry to those who thinks that
it's really inconvenient for you guys to relink me all over again..
i'm really sorry.
and anw, it's up to you whether you really wanna relink me or not.
afterall, it's yourself and your blogs.
okaey, so this morning, i went to school.
as per normal.
school was fun just now.
had loads of laughters.
but when it comes to assembly, it was fucking boring.
as usual laa.
it was the principal's address just now.
she showed us our results analysis by level.
and she nagged.
just like my mum.
but then i realised that her nagging was just for my own good.
our own good.
yes.
and so, im left with 3 weeks.
i must move on.
why waste more time.
haaah.
im going now.
hahaks.
motivated enough.
oh yea, today is a war with mum's day.
hahaha.
a few of my friends quarelled with their mums as well.
including bestie!
hahaa.
ohwells,
bye!
mum; remember the MOTOROKR E2 . i've quit my job now. mwaaaahaahaaa. *((:

2006-09-12T19:58:00.000+08:00

hey all.
forget about yesterday's post.
i've not been talking to my mum.
haiss.
ohwells, school was fine today.
everyone laughed at my neck cause i couldn't really turn.
it still hurts.
but still, i had fun.
hoho.
hey wid! tks for all the laughs.
hahaks.
uhmm, oh yea, i need comments for my new skin.
i noe its kinda plain but maybe i just need a change.
im in love with black and red now.
it's in fashion.
hehs.
i'll havta start going to the library staring from tmr.
exam's in three weeks.
and oh yea, my 10 month's in 11 more days.
time flies real fast.
before i knew it, it's going to be one year.
the love is still strong tho.
<33333
i love KHAIRUL!
haha.
oops!
before i forget abt the spagetthi im cooking, i'd better start buzzing.
hee.
bye all.
((:

2006-09-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

why must she tell my goddamn dad?
i feel very infuriated.
haiss.
im really really mad at that bitch now.
why among all people, my DAD?!
and now, because of her..
my mum has been bickering at me and i am very very stressed.
why must my life be like this.
its fucking shitty all the time!
they think that when i quit my job, i'll be more attentive in class and
i will excel.
fuck that mentality man!
i can do it if nobody pushes me.
c'mon laaa, u guys never ever show u cared..
whenever i talk about my ambition, you guys just shut me off!
so much for being soo concerned!
stop it laa.. it disgusts me.
im really really mad at u guys.
the more you guys just pretend, the more will i just not excel and not
try my fucking best.
i can't hold on any longer.
you guys keep controlling me like im a bird eversince i was a kid.
even when im 16, you guys think im still SMALL.
and treat me like a 10 year old kiddo.
im just not gonna talk to you guys anymore.
my dreams of buying a MOTOROKR E2 was just shattered!!!!
FUCK LIFE!
FUCK THAT BITCH!
FUCK MY PARENTS!
AND FUCK ALL THE BUSYBODYS IN THIS WORLD!